I clap my hands over my mouth, but the sound has already escaped. The sky goes black and I hear a chorus of frogs begin to sing. Stupid! I tell myself. What a stupid thing to do! I wait, frozen, for the woods to come alive with assailants. Then I remember there's almost no one left.
我赶紧捂住嘴,可话已出口,天空又陷入黑暗,成群的青蛙呱呱地叫起来。“愚蠢!”我对自己说,“真是太愚蠢了!”我身体僵直地等待着林子里出现袭击者,但周围寂然无声,我猛然想起,我们没剩下几个人了。
Peeta, who's been wounded, is now my ally. Whatever doubts I've had about him dissipate because if either of us took the other's life now we'd be pariahs when we returned to District 12. In fact, I know if I was watching I'd loathe any tribute who didn't immediately ally with their district partner. Besides, it just makes sense to protect each other. And in my case -- being one of the star-crossed lovers from District 12 -- it's an absolute requirement if I want any more help from sympathetic sponsors.
皮塔已经严重受伤,而他现在成了我的同盟者。无论我对他曾有过怎样的猜忌,都必须摈弃,因为我们两个无论谁杀死谁,在十二区都会被人唾弃。事实上,如果我是观众,我也会讨厌不与本区选手联合的人。再说,彼此保护也有益处。在任何情况下,作为两个来自十二区的明星恋人,不互相帮助就不可能得到任何有同情心的人士的赞助。
The star-crossed lovers… Peeta must have been playing that angle all along. Why else would the Gamemakers have made this unprecedented change in the rules? For two tributes to have a shot at winning, our "romance" must be so popular with the audience that condemning it would jeopardize the success of the Games. No thanks to me. All I've done is managed not to kill Peeta. But whatever he's done in the arena, he must have the audience convinced it was to keep me alive. Shaking his head to keep me from running to the Cornucopia. Fighting Cato to let me escape. Even hooking up with the Careers must have been a move to protect me. Peeta, it turns out, has never been a danger to me.
明星恋人…皮塔肯定一直在扮演这个天使的角色。否则人赛组织者干吗要改变规则?就为了让两个选手在胜利时同时亮相。我们的浪漫故事肯定在观众中广为流传;诅咒它,就等于威胁比赛的成功。不用感谢我,我所做的一切就是尽量避免杀死皮塔;但他的所作所为都使观众相信一切都是为了保住我的性命。在我要跑向宙斯之角时,他摇头;他与加图斗争,让我逃跑;甚至和职业选手混在一起也是为了保护我。事实证明,皮塔从未对我构成威胁。
So, who is there left to be afraid of? Foxface? The boy tribute from her district is dead. She's operating alone, at night. And her strategy has been to evade, not attack. I don't really think that, even if she heard my voice, she'd do anything but hope someone else would kill me.
那么,剩下的人中,哪一个是应该感到害怕的?狐狸脸?他们区来的男孩已经死了,夜晚,她只有孤独一人,她现在的策略应该是避让,而非进攻。我想,就算她现在听到我的声音,也并不希望有人把我杀死。
The thought makes me smile. I drop my hands and hold my face up to the moonlight so the cameras can be sure to catch it.
想到这,我笑了。我把手放下,仰起脸对着月亮,好让摄像机拍到我。
So that leaves Cato and the girl from District 2, who are now surely celebrating the new rule. They're the only ones left who benefit from it besides Peeta and myself. Do I run from them now, on the chance they heard me call Peeta's name? No, I think. Let them come. Let them come with their night-vision glasses and their heavy, branch-breaking bodies. Right into the range of my arrows. But I know they won't. If they didn't come in daylight to my fire, they won't risk what could be another trap at night. When they come, it will be on their own terms, not because I've let them know my whereabouts.
那么,就还剩下加图和二区的女孩,他们一定在为新规则额手称庆,他们是除了皮塔和我外受益于新规则的选手。怕他们万一听到我喊皮塔的名字,我应该赶快逃脱他们的追捕吗?“不,”我想,“让他们来吧。”让他们戴着夜视镜,拖着沉重的、会压断树枝的身躯来吧,直接来到我弓箭的射程内。可我知道他们不会,如果白天看到火堆不会来,那么晚上害怕落入圈套,他们更不会冒险。因此,他们就算来也完全是自己的决定,而非我暴露了行踪。
Then there's Thresh. All right, he's a distinct threat. But I haven't seen him, not once, since the Games began. I think about how Foxface grew alarmed when she heard a sound at the site of the explosion. But she didn't turn to the woods, she turned to whatever lies across from it. To that area of the arena that drops off into I don't know what. I feel almost certain that the person she ran from was Thresh and that is his domain. He'd never have heard me from there and, even if he did, I'm up too high for someone his size to reach.
那么还有萨里什,好吧,他是严重的威胁,可自从比赛开始以来,我从没见过他,一次都没有。我想起狐狸脸在爆炸后听到声音立刻警觉起来,可她并没有跑向丛林,而是向相反方向跑,朝竞技场我不熟悉的方向跑,我感觉很肯定,她要躲的人就是萨里什,而那是他的领地,他在那里永远都不可能听到我的声音,即使听到,我爬得这么高,他那种身量的人也上不来。
I do sleep, but in the morning I'm extra-cautious, thinking that while the Careers might hesitate to attack me in a tree, they're completely capable of setting an ambush for me. I make sure to fully prepare myself for the day -- eating a big breakfast, securing my pack, readying my weapons -- before I descend. But all seems peaceful and undisturbed on the ground.
我睡着了。早晨醒来时,我更小心谨慎。如果其他人不会在树上进攻我,他们完全可以在地面设下埋伏。我要确保自己已为白天的搏杀做好一切准备,吃饱早饭,检查好背包,准备好武器,然后才下树。但地面上似乎静悄悄的,一切平安。
Stay put and get some sleep, Katniss, I instruct myself, although I wish I could start tracking Peeta now. Tomorrow, you'll find him.
“就待在这儿,睡一会儿吧,凯特尼斯。”我命令自己,其实我希望此时去追寻皮塔的下落。“明天,你会找到他的。
Today I'll have to be scrupulously careful. The Careers will know I'm trying to locate Peeta. They may well want to wait until I do before they move in. If he's as badly wounded as Cato thinks, I'd be in the position of having to defend us both without any assistance. But if he's that incapacitated, how has he managed to stay alive? And how on earth will I find him?
今天我一定要极为小心。职业选手会知道我要找到皮塔,他们会在我行动之后再伺机出动。如果皮塔真如加图所说受了重伤,那我就要在没有任何帮助的情况下保护我们两个人。如果皮塔身受重伤,他又是怎么活下来的呢?我如何才能找到他呢?
I try to think of anything Peeta ever said that might give me an indication as to where he's hiding out, but nothing rings a bell. So I go back to the last moment I saw him sparkling in the sunlight, yelling at me to run. Then Cato appeared, his sword drawn. And after I was gone, he wounded Peeta. But how did Peeta get away? Maybe he'd held out better against the tracker jacker poison than Cato. Maybe that was the variable that allowed him to escape. But he'd been stung, too. So how far could he have gotten, stabbed and filled with venom? And how has he stayed alive all these days since? If the wound and the stingers haven't killed him, surely thirst would have taken him by now.
我极力回忆那晚皮塔说过的话,好找到皮塔藏身的蛛丝马迹,可一点线索也没有。所以我又回想他在阳光下满脸都是亮晶晶水滴、冲我大喊“快跑”时的情形。皮塔对我说完话,之后加图出现,手里拿着刀,我跑掉之后,他就刺伤了皮塔。可皮塔怎么逃走的?也许他被黄蜂蜇伤后比加图的情况要好,也许只是凭运气逃脱了,可是他也被蜇伤了,他在被刺伤、体内还有蜂毒的情况下又能跑出多远呢?此后的许多天他又是怎样设法活下来的?如果他的伤和蜂毒没有令他丧命的话,肯定他也快要渴死了。
And that's when I get my first clue to his whereabouts. He couldn't have survived without water. I know that from my first few days here. He must be hidden somewhere near a source. There's the lake, but I find that an unlikely option since it's so close to the Careers' base camp. A few spring-fed pools. But you'd really be a sitting duck at one of those. And the stream. The one that leads from the camp Rue and I made all the way down near the lake and beyond. If he stuck to the stream, he could change his location and always be near water. He could walk in the current and erase any tracks. He might even be able to get a fish or two.
想到这儿,我找到了第一个线索。没有水,他无法存活,开始几天,我也如此。他一定藏在靠近水源的地方。是湖边,川继而我又觉得这不可能,因为那样的话,离职业选手的营地人近了。再不就是竞技场的几口泉眼,这无异于坐以待毙。那就只有小溪了,那条经过我和露露的栖息地,一直流经湖边,再奔向远处的小溪。如果他一直靠近小溪,他就会始终靠近水源,而又可以不停地变换位置。他可以在溪流中走动而不会留下任何印记,他甚至可以抓到一些鱼吃。
To confuse my enemies' minds, I start a fire with plenty of green wood. Even if they think it's a ruse, I hope they'll decide I'm hidden somewhere near it. While in reality, I'll be tracking Peeta.
为了迷惑敌手,我用嫩枝点火引起浓烟。就算他们觉得这是圈套,我也希望他们会由此推断我的位置离火堆不远。而事实上,我要去找皮塔。
The sun burns off the morning haze almost immediately and I can tell the day will be hotter than usual. The water's cool and pleasant on my bare feet as I head downstream. I'm tempted to call out Peeta's name as I go but decide against it. I will have to find him with my eyes and one good ear or he will have to find me. But he'll know I'll be looking, right? He won't have so low of an opinion of me as to think I'd ignore the new rule and keep to myself. Would he? He's very hard to predict, which might be interesting under different circumstances, but at the moment only provides an extra obstacle.
炙热的阳光很快驱散了晨雾,我知道今天一定比平时还热。我在小溪中顺溪流而下,溪水没过我的脚,感觉凉凉的,很舒服。我开始想喊皮塔的名字,但又觉得不妥。我要用眼睛和一只好耳朵找到他,或者他发现我。但他应该知道我在找他,对吧?他不会小看我,认为我置新规则于不顾,只会明哲保身吧?他的心思挺难猜的,要在平时,猜测他的心思挺有趣,可现在猜错了就不容易找到他了。
Well, it's a place to start, anyway.
嗯,不管怎样,可以先从这儿开始找。
Hugging the rocks, I move slowly in the direction of the blood, searching for him. I find a few more bloodstains, one with a few threads of fabric glued to it, but no sign of life. I break down and say his name in a hushed voice. "Peeta! Peeta!"
绕着这块石头,我沿着血迹寻找皮塔,我又看到更多的血迹,在一摊血上还粘着些布丝,但没有皮塔的踪迹。我继续朝前走,小声喊着皮塔的名字。“皮塔!皮塔!
It doesn't take long to reach the spot where I peeled off to go to the Careers' camp. There's been no sign of Peeta, but this doesn't surprise me. I've been up and down this stretch three times since the tracker jacker incident. If he were nearby, surely I'd have had some suspicion of it. The stream begins to curve to the left into a part of the woods that's new to me. Muddy banks covered in tangled water plants lead to large rocks that increase in size until I begin to feel somewhat trapped. It would be no small matter to escape the stream now. Fighting off Cato or Thresh as I climbed over this rocky terrain. In fact, I've just about decided I'm on the wrong track entirely, that a wounded boy would be unable to navigate getting to and from this water source, when I see the bloody streak going down the curve of a boulder. It's long dried now, but the smeary lines running side to side suggest someone -- who perhaps was not fully in control of his mental faculties -- tried to wipe it away.
我很快就到了远离溪流,通往职业选手营地的分岔道,但没有皮塔的踪迹,这也在意料之中。从黄蜂蜇人的事发生后,我在这条路上来来回回已经走过三次了。如果他就在附近,我会有感觉。溪流向左流向一片我不熟悉的林地,湿滑泥泞的岸边生长着许多盘根错节的水生植物,沿河岸向前出现了一块大石头,越往前走,石头越大,前面的路似乎已经不通了,从溪流的这个方向逃走,乱石林立,还要防备加图和萨里什的袭击,肯定很不容易,一个受伤的人不可能走这条路线,我觉得走的方向肯定不对,这时却看到在大石头的转弯处有血迹。血迹早已干了,从模糊的印记上可以判断,有人在大脑不完全听从支配的情况下,曾试图把地上的血迹擦掉。
My foot has just broken the surface of the water when I hear a voice. "You here to finish me off, sweetheart?"
我刚把脚踏到溪水里,就听到有人说话:“你来这里是要结果我的性命吗,亲爱的?
I whip around. It's come from the left, so I can't pick it up very well. And the voice was hoarse and weak. Still, it must have been Peeta. Who else in the arena would call me sweetheart? My eyes peruse the bank, but there's nothing. Just mud, the plants, the base of the rocks.
我急忙转身,说话声是从左侧传过来的,我听不太真切,声音沙哑虚弱,一定是皮塔,否则在竞技场还会有谁叫我“亲爱的”?我眯起眼朝河岸看去,没人,只有泥地、植物和石头。
Then a mockingjay lands on a scruffy tree and begins to mimic my tones so I stop. I give up and climb back down to the stream thinking, He must have moved on. Somewhere farther down.
一只嘲笑鸟落在灌木丛上,开始模仿我的声音,我不得不停下。我放弃寻找,爬回到小溪旁,心想:“他肯定朝前走了,朝远处走了。
"Well, don't step on me."
“哎,别踩我身上。
"Peeta?" I whisper. "Where are you?" There's no answer. Could I just have imagined it? No, I'm certain it was real and very close at hand, too. "Peeta?" I creep along the bank.
“皮塔,”我轻声说,“你在哪儿?”没有回答。难道我出现错觉?不,我肯定自己听到了声音而且离得很近。“皮塔?”我轻手轻脚地沿河岸寻找。
It's the final word in camouflage. Forget chucking weights around. Peeta should have gone into his private session with the Gamemakers and painted himself into a tree. Or a boulder. Or a muddy bank full of weeds.
他肯定是在最后大赛组织者安排的个人伪装课程上学的这一套,他能把自己伪装成一棵树,或者石头,或者杂草丛生的泥泞的河岸。
I jump back. His voice was right under my feet. Still there's nothing. Then his eyes open, unmistakably blue in the brown mud and green leaves. I gasp and am rewarded with a hint of white teeth as he laughs.
我向后跳了一步,他的声音就是从我脚下发出的,可还是什么都看不到。之后他睁开了眼睛,在黄褐色的泥地和绿色树叶之间蓝色的眼睛清晰可见,我喘着粗气,他笑了起来,露出一点白色的牙齿。
"Close your eyes again," I order. He does, and his mouth, too, and completely disappears. Most of what I judge to be his body is actually under a layer of mud and plants. His face and arms are so artfully disguised as to be invisible. I kneel beside him. "I guess all those hours decorating cakes paid off."
“再闭上眼睛。”我命令道。他闭上了眼睛和嘴巴,之后完个消失了。我判断他身体的大部分实际上藏在一层泥巴和杂草的下面,他的脸和胳膊很巧妙地隐藏起来,完全看不见,我跪在他旁边。“下工夫装点蛋糕还真有好处,啊?
Peeta smiles. "Yes, frosting. The final defense of the dying."
皮塔笑了,“是啊,糖霜,这是垂死者最后的自我保护法。
"Says who?" His voice is so ragged.
“谁说的?”他的声音很沙哑。
"Says me. We're on the same team now, you know," I tell him.
“我说的,我们现在在一个战壕里,这你知道。”我跟他说。
"You're not going to die," I tell him firmly.
“你并不是垂死的人。”我坚定地对他说。
I pull out my water bottle and give him a drink. "Did Cato cut you?" I ask.
我拿出水瓶,让他喝了点水。“加图刺伤了你吗?”我问。
His eyes open. "So, I heard. Nice of you to find what's left of me."
他睁大了眼睛,“我也听说了,你真好,我这么狼狈还找到了我。
"Left leg. Up high," he answers.
“左腿,腿根。”他回答。
"Let's get you in the stream, wash you off so I can see what kind of wounds you've got," I say.
“你到溪水里洗净伤口,我看看那儿伤得怎么样!”我说。
"Lean down a minute first," he says. "Need to tell you something." I lean over and put my good ear to his lips, which tickle as he whispers. "Remember, we're madly in love, so it's all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it."
“你先俯下身来,我有话跟你说。”我俯身把好耳朵凑到他嘴边,他说话时耳朵痒痒的。“记住,我们在疯狂地恋爱,所以任何时候你想都可以吻我。
"Look, Peeta, I'm going to roll you into the stream. It's very shallow here, okay?" I say.
“你瞧,皮塔。我要把你滚到水里,这儿很浅,你看行吗?”我说。
I jerk my head back but end up laughing. "Thanks, I'll keep it in mind." At least, he's still able to joke around. But when I start to help him to the stream, all the levity disappears. It's only two feet away, how hard can it be? Very hard when I realize he's unable to move an inch on his own. He's so weak that the best he can do is not to resist. I try to drag him, but despite the fact that I know he's doing all he can to keep quiet, sharp cries of pain escape him. The mud and plants seem to have imprisoned him and I finally have to give a gigantic tug to break him from their clutches. He's still two feet from the water, lying there, teeth gritted, tears cutting trails in the dirt on his face.
我抬起头哈哈地笑起来,“谢谢,我会记住的。”至少,他还能开玩笑。可当我想要搀扶他到溪边时,他的轻松活泼顿然消失。毕竟,走到溪边只有两英尺距离,能有多难?可是当我知道他一英寸路都挪不动时,才意识到有多艰难。他非常虚弱,唯一能做的就是顺从我。我试图去拽他,尽管他极力忍耐,还是疼得惨叫起来。泥土和杂草好像把他缠住了,我用尽平生力气,才把他拽出来。他躺在那里,紧咬牙关,满是泥浆的脸上留下泪痕。他离溪水仍有两英尺距离。
"Excellent," he says.
“太好了。”他说。
I crouch down beside him. No matter what happens, I tell myself, don't stop until he's in the water. "On three," I say. "One, two, three!" I can only manage one full roll before I have to stop because of the horrible sound he's making. Now he's on the edge of the stream. Maybe this is better anyway.
我在他身边蹲下,对自己说,无论怎样,不把他滚到水里,就不要停下。“我数到三,”我说,“一、二、三!”我只把他滚了一圈,听到他可怕的叫声,不得不停下。现在他已快到水边了。也许这样更好。
"That's all done. Let's get you cleaned up. Keep an eye on the woods for me, okay?" I say. It's hard to know where to start. He's so caked with mud and matted leaves, I can't even see his clothes. If he's wearing clothes. The thought makes me hesitate a moment, but then I plunge in. Naked bodies are no big deal in the arena, right?
“就这么着吧,现在给你洗洗,帮我留心树林里的情况,好吗?”我说。真不知道该从哪里开始。他满身泥浆和乱草,我甚至看不见他的衣服,要是他还穿着衣服的话。想到这儿,我犹豫了一下,但马上又投入工作。裸体在竞技场也算不了什么,不是吗?
"Okay, change of plans. I'm not going to put you all the way in," I tell him. Besides, if I get him in, who knows if I'd ever be able to get him out?
“好的,现在改变计划,我不准备把你全部滚进去。”我对他说。另外,我要把他滚进去,天知道我还能不能把他弄出来。
"No more rolling?" he asks.
“不滚了?”他问。
I've got two water bottles and Rue's water skin. I prop them against rocks in the stream so that two are always filling while I pour the third over Peeta's body. It takes a while, but I finally get rid of enough mud to find his clothes. I gently unzip his jacket, unbutton his shirt and ease them off him. His undershirt is so plastered into his wounds I have to cut it away with my knife and drench him again to work it loose. He's badly bruised with a long burn across his chest and four tracker jacker stings, if you count the one under his ear. But I feel a bit better. This much I can fix. I decide to take care of his upper body first, to alleviate some pain, before I tackle whatever damage Cato did to his leg.
我有两个水瓶和露露的皮水袋。我把其中两个支在溪水里的石头上,这样保证它们总是满的,然后用第三个给皮塔冲洗。这花了一会儿工夫,最后我把泥洗净后,终于看到皮塔的衣服。我小心地拉开他上衣拉链,解开衬衣扣子,轻轻脱掉。他的衬衣已经紧紧贴在伤口上,我不得不用刀子把衬衣拉开,再用水泡上,好让它变软。他的前胸有一块长长的烧伤,算上耳后的,还有四处黄蜂的蜇伤。我感觉还好,这些我都能应付得了。我决定先处理他上身的伤口,以减轻些疼痛,然后再处理加图在他腿上的刺伤。
"Swallow these," I tell him, and he obediently takes the medicine. "You must be hungry."
“把这个吞下去。”我对他说。他很听话,吃了药。“你一定饿了吧。
"Not really. It's funny, I haven't been hungry for days," says Peeta. In fact, when I offer him groosling, he wrinkles his nose at it and turns away. That's when I know how sick he is.
“不太饿,很可笑,我已经几天都不觉得饿了。”皮塔说。当我把大嘴雀肉举到他嘴边时,他抽抽鼻子,把头扭开了。这时我才意识到他病得有多厉害。
Since treating his wounds seems pointless when he's lying in what's become a mud puddle, I manage to prop him up against a boulder. He sits there, uncomplaining, while I wash away all the traces of dirt from his hair and skin. His flesh is very pale in the sunlight and he no longer looks strong and stocky. I have to dig the stingers out of his tracker jacker lumps, which causes him to wince, but the minute I apply the leaves he sighs in relief. While he dries in the sun, I wash his filthy shirt and jacket and spread them over boulders. Then I apply the burn cream to his chest. This is when I notice how hot his skin is becoming. The layer of mud and the bottles of water have disguised the fact that he's burning with fever. I dig through the first-aid kit I got from the boy from District 1 and find pills that reduce your temperature. My mother actually breaks down and buys these on occasion when her home remedies fail.
因为他躺在泥坑里处理伤口似乎效果不好,我就把他身体竖起来,靠在一块大石头上。他一声不响地坐着,我把他头发和皮肤上所有的泥都洗掉。在阳光下,他皮肤苍白,人看上去也王不再结实健壮。我要把蜂刺从他皮肤里拔出来,他疼得直往回缩,可我一敷上药,他就轻松地舒了口气。他在太阳下晒着,我赶紧把他的脏衬衫和夹克洗干净,晾在石头上。然后给他胸口的烧伤敷上药。这时我才发现他的身体很烫,泥和水掩盖了他的高体温,我在从一区男孩那里夺来的急救箱中找到退烧药。妈妈在自制药方不起作用时,会买这种药。
"Peeta, we need to get some food in you," I insist.
“皮塔,我需要你吃点东西。”我坚持道。
"Thanks. I'm much better, really. Can I sleep now, Katniss?" he asks.
“谢谢,我好多了,真的。我可以睡了吗,凯特尼斯?”他问。
"It'll just come right back up," he says. The best I can do is to get him to eat a few bits of dried apple.
“马上会吐出来。”他说。我只能劝他吃点苹果干。
"Soon," I promise. "I need to look at your leg first."
“很快,”我答应道,“我需要先看看你的腿。
"Pretty awful, huh?" says Peeta. He's watching me closely.
“糟透了,哈?”皮塔说,他离我很近,看着我。
I want to run away. Disappear into the woods like I did that day they brought the burn victim to our house. Go and hunt while my mother and Prim attend to what I have neither the skill nor the courage to face. But there's no one here but me. I try to capture the calm demeanor my mother assumes when handling particularly bad cases.
我想跑开,消失在林子里,就像那天家里来了烧伤病人,去林子打猎,留下妈妈和波丽姆照料我既没能力也没勇气面对的病人。可在这儿,除我外没有别人。我学着妈妈处理严重病人时表现出的镇静自若。
Trying to be as gentle as I can, I remove his boots, his socks, and then very slowly inch his pants off of him. I can see the tear Cato's sword made in the fabric over his thigh, but it in no way prepares me for what lies underneath. The deep inflamed gash oozing both blood and pus. The swelling of the leg. And worst of all, the smell of festering flesh.
我尽量轻地把他的靴子和袜子脱下来,然后慢慢地、一点一点地脱掉裤子。在外面衣服上可以看到被加图划开的大口子,但我却无论如何没想到里面伤得那么厉害。深深的伤口红肿着,流出脓血,整个腿已经肿了。最糟糕的是,腐肉发出臭味。
"So-so." I shrug like it's no big deal. "You should see some of the people they bring my mother from the mines." I refrain from saying how I usually clear out of the house whenever she's treating anything worse than a cold. Come to think of it, I don't even much like to be around coughing. "First thing is to clean it well."
“还好。”我耸耸肩,装作没事的样子,“你应该看看人们从矿上给我妈送来的病人。”可只要病人得的病比感冒严重,我都会跑出去,这事我却没敢告诉他。想一想,我自己甚至连个感冒都很少得啊。“先要把伤口洗干净。
I've left on Peeta's undershorts because they're not in bad shape and I don't want to pull them over the swollen thigh and, all right, maybe the idea of him being naked makes me uncomfortable. That's another thing about my mother and Prim. Nakedness has no effect on them, gives them no cause for embarrassment. Ironically, at this point in the Games, my little sister would be of far more use to Peeta than I am. I scoot my square of plastic under him so I can wash down the rest of him. With each bottle I pour over him, the worse the wound looks. The rest of his lower body has fared pretty well, just one tracker jacker sting and a few small burns that I treat quickly. But the gash on his leg… what on earth can I do for that?
我留下皮塔的短裤没脱,因为短裤看起来还行,我也不想把它从皮塔红肿的大腿根褪下来,还有,好吧,也许我得承认皮塔的裸体让我不舒服。换了妈妈和波丽姆就不一样了,她们觉得裸体没什么,不会让人尴尬,很讽刺,此时此地,在比赛中,我的小妹妹对皮塔比我对他会更有用。我把小块塑料布垫在他的臀下,这样我就能冲洗他的腿部。我一瓶瓶地往他腿上浇水,可伤口看上去更糟糕了。腿的其他地方都很好,只有一处蜇伤和一些小块烧伤,我迅速处理了这些伤口,可他腿上的刀伤…天哪,我该怎么办呢?
"Why don't we give it some air and then…" I trail off.
“咱们干吗不让伤口见见空气,然后…”我的声音没有了。
"Katniss?" Peeta says. I meet his eyes, knowing my face must be some shade of green. He mouths the words. "How about that kiss?"
“凯特尼斯?”皮塔说。我与他的目光相遇,我的表情一定很青涩,他用唇语说,“刚才说的那个吻怎么样?
"And then you'll patch it up?" says Peeta. He looks almost sorry for me, as if he knows how lost I am.
“然后你把它补好?”皮塔说。他看上去甚至为我感到遗憾,完全明白此时我有多失落。
"That's right," I say. "In the meantime, you eat these." I put a few dried pear halves in his hand and go back in the stream to wash the rest of his clothes. When they're flattened out and drying, I examine the contents of the first-aid kit. It's pretty basic stuff. Bandages, fever pills, medicine to calm stomachs. Nothing of the caliber I'll need to treat Peeta.
“没错,”我说,“你也别闲着,把这个吃了。”我把一些梨干放在他手里,之后去溪边洗衣服,又把洗好的衣服铺好,等晾干,然后仔细检查急救箱。里面只有一些最基本的东西,绷带、退烧药、胃药,没有用来治疗皮塔的药物。
"We're going to have to experiment some," I admit. I know the tracker jacker leaves draw out infection, so I start with those. Within minutes of pressing the handful of chewed-up green stuff into the wound, pus begins running down the side of his leg. I tell myself this is a good thing and bite the inside of my cheek hard because my breakfast is threatening to make a reappearance.
“我们要做点试验。”我说,我知道治疗蜂毒的草药能将感染后的脓液吸出,所以我先用这些叶子试一试。我把嚼好的草药敷在他的刀伤上,几分钟后,脓液就顺着大腿流下来,我在心里对自己说这草药对伤口有好处,同时我使劲咬自己的腮帮子,因为早饭就要从胃里漾出来了。
"I… I'm no good at this. I'm not my mother. I've no idea what I'm doing and I hate pus," I say. "Euh!" I allow myself to let out a groan as I rinse away the first round of leaves and apply the second. "Euuuh!"
“我…我不太会弄这个,我不是妈妈,不知道做得对不对,我讨厌脓水。”我说,“呜!”当我冲洗掉刚才敷上的草药,再敷上一层时,我发出痛苦的叫声,“呜…!
I burst out laughing because the whole thing is so revolting I can't stand it.
我禁不住笑了出来,太令人作呕了,我不能忍受。
"How do you hunt?" he asks.
“那你怎么打猎的?”他问。
"Trust me. Killing things is much easier than this," I said. "Although for all I know, I am killing you."
“说真的,杀死动物比这容易多了。”我说,“要我说,现在正在杀死你。
"Can you speed it up a little?" he asks.
“你能快一点吗?”他问。
After three applications and what seems like a bucket of pus, the wound does look better. Now that the swelling has gone down, I can see how deep Cato's sword cut. Right down to the bone.
敷了三次药,感觉像是流出了一桶脓水之后,伤口看上去确实好多了。肿已消下去很多,我可以看清伤口有多深了,一直削到骨头。
"Something wrong?" he asks a little too innocently.
“有什么不对吗?”他问得有点太天真了。
"What next, Dr. Everdeen?" he asks.
“下面该干什么,伊夫迪恩大夫?”他问。
"No. Shut up and eat your pears," I say.
“不能,闭上嘴,吃你的梨干。”我说。
"Maybe I'll put some of the burn ointment on it. I think it helps with infection anyway. And wrap it up?" I say. I do and the whole thing seems a lot more manageable, covered in clean white cotton. Although, against the sterile bandage, the hem of his undershorts looks filthy and teeming with contagion. I pull out Rue's backpack. "Here, cover yourself with this and I'll wash your shorts."
“没准我该给你敷点烧伤药膏。我觉得这药也能治感染。然后包扎起来。”我说。我给他弄好,包上干净的白纱布,伤口看上去好多了。可是,和白纱布紧挨着的短裤看上去脏乎乎的,大概藏满细菌,我拿出露露的背包,“喏,给你,盖住,我给你洗洗短裤。
"You're just like the rest of my family," I say. "I care, all right?" I turn my back and look at the stream until the undershorts splash into the current. He must be feeling a bit better if he can throw.
“你就像我的家人,我在乎,好吧?”我转过身,面朝小溪,过了会儿,他把短裤扔到溪水里。他能扔东西,一定感觉还不错。
"Oh, I don't care if you see me," says Peeta.
“噢,我不在乎你看见我。”皮塔说。
I wrinkle my nose at the memory. "What's he sent you so far?"
我皱起眉头,“到现在为止,他给你送什么东西了?
"Not a thing," says Peeta. Then there's a pause as it hits him. "Why, did you get something?"
“啥也没有。”皮塔说,说到这儿,他略停顿了一下,“怎么,你拿到什么了吗?
"Burn medicine," I say almost sheepishly. "Oh, and some bread."
“烧伤药膏,”我说道,几乎有点羞怯,“噢,还有一块面包。
"Because you're just alike," mutters Peeta. I ignore it though because this really isn't the time for me to be insulting Haymitch, which is my first impulse.
“那是因为你俩很相像。”皮塔喃喃地说。我没再答话,因为我的第一感觉是现在不是骂黑密斯的时候。
"You know, you're kind of squeamish for such a lethal person," says Peeta as I beat the shorts clean between two rocks. "I wish I'd let you give Haymitch a shower after all."
“瞧你,对一个要死的人,你有点太敏感了。”我在岩石上洗短裤时,皮塔说道,“我真希望那天也让你留下给黑密斯冲凉。
"Please, he can't stand being in the same room with me," I say.
“得了吧,跟我待在一个屋里他都受不了。”我说。
I let Peeta doze off while his clothes dry out, but by late afternoon, I don't dare wait any longer. I gently shake his shoulder. "Peeta, we've got to go now."
趁着晒衣服,我让皮塔打了会儿盹,接近黄昏时,我不敢再等了。我轻轻摇摇皮塔的肩膀,“皮塔,咱们得走了。
"I always knew you were his favorite," says Peeta.
“我就知道他最看重的人是你。”皮塔说。
"Go?" He seems confused. "Go where?"
“走?”他一脸迷惑,“往哪儿走?
But he can't. Not for long anyway. We make it about fifty yards downstream, with him propped up by my shoulder, and I can tell he's going to black out. I sit him on the bank, push his head between his knees, and pat his back awkwardly as I survey the area. Of course, I'd love to get him up in a tree, but that's not going to happen. It could be worse though. Some of the rocks form small cavelike structures. I set my sights on one about twenty yards above the stream. When Peeta's able to stand, I half-guide, half-carry him up to the cave. Really, I'd like to look around for a better place, but this one will have to do because my ally is shot. Paper white, panting, and, even though it's only just cooling off, he's shivering.
可他不行,走不了多远。他扶着我的肩,我们顺着溪流走了大约五十码,看得出他已经没力气了。我让他坐在溪边,把头夹到两腿之间,然后笨拙地给他拍着后背,一边观察周围的情况。当然,我很想把他弄到树上,可这是无法办到的,这样事情就更不好办了。我发现岩石有些空洞,我的目光落在距溪流十码远的一块石头上。皮塔能站立时,我把他半拖半拽地拉到洞里。其实,我想找到更理想的地方,但他受了伤,可以在此暂避。他已面无血色,天气只有一点凉,他已冻得浑身发抖。
"Away from here. Downstream maybe. Somewhere we can hide you until you're stronger," I say. I help him dress, leaving his feet bare so we can walk in the water, and pull him upright. His face drains of color the moment he puts weight on his leg. "Come on. You can do this."
“离开这里。没准顺着溪流向下走,把你藏起来,一直等你好起来。”我说。我帮他穿好衣服,让他光着脚,我们好在水里走,接着把他拉起来。他的腿一用力,立刻脸色煞白。“坚持,你能行。
"You would have found me if you could," I say.
“换了你,你也会去找我的。”我说。
"Katniss," he says. I go over to him and brush the hair back from his eyes. "Thanks for finding me."
“凯特尼斯。”他说。我走过去,把他的头发从他眼睛上拨开,“谢谢你找到了我。
His forehead's burning up. Like the medicine's having no effect at all. Suddenly, out of nowhere, I'm scared he's going to die.
他的前额烫极了,好像药片根本不起作用。突然,不知怎的我的心一紧,一种莫名的担心油然而生,他不会死吧?
"I know. But just in case I don't --" he tries to continue.
“我知道,可万一我不能——”他想继续说下去。
I cover the floor of the cave with a layer of pine needles, unroll my sleeping bag, and tuck him into it. I get a couple of pills and some water into him when he's not noticing, but he refuses to eat even the fruit. Then he just lies there, his eyes trained on my face as I build a sort of blind out of vines to conceal the mouth of the cave. The result is unsatisfactory. An animal might not question it, but a human would see hands had manufactured it quickly enough. I tear it down in frustration.
我在洞穴的地上垫上一层松针,打开我的睡袋,把他塞进去,趁他不注意时,在水里放进几片药,可他连干果都不想吃。他躺在那儿,眼睛直愣愣地看着我,我又用藤蔓做了一下伪装,把洞口盖住。效果不太好,这东西不会引起动物的怀疑,但人一眼就能看出这是草草搭上的,我把它扯了下来,内心十分沮丧。
"Yes. Look, if I don't make it back --" he begins.
“是的,你瞧,如果我再也回不去了——”他说。
"Don't talk like that. I didn't drain all that pus for nothing," I say.
“别这么说,你的脓水不是白挤的啊。”我说。
"No, Peeta, I don't even want to discuss it," I say, placing my fingers on his lips to quiet him.
“不,皮塔,我不想说这个。”我说着,把手指放在他嘴上不让他说下去。
And he's right. If I want to keep Peeta alive, I've got to give the audience something more to care about. Star-crossed lovers desperate to get home together. Two hearts beating as one. Romance.
他是对的,如果我想让皮塔活下去,我要给观众更多博得他们关心的理由,明星恋人渴望一起回家,他们两人的心是连在一起的。这就是罗曼蒂克。
Impulsively, I lean forward and kiss him, stopping his words. This is probably overdue anyway since he's right, we are supposed to be madly in love. It's the first time I've ever kissed a boy, which should make some sort of impression I guess, but all I can register is how unnaturally hot his lips are from the fever. I break away and pull the edge of the sleeping bag up around him. "You're not going to die. I forbid it. All right?"
我一冲动,俯下身去吻了他,不让他再说下去。这吻也许来得有点迟了,可也许他是对的,我们应该在疯狂地恋爱。这是我第一次吻男孩子,本应该留下深刻印象,但我能感觉到的只是他滚烫的嘴唇。我赶紧起身,给他掖了掖睡袋。“你不会死的,我不许你死,好吗?
Haymitch couldn't be sending me a clearer message. One kiss equals one pot of broth. I can almost hear his snarl. "You're supposed to be in love, sweetheart. The boy's dying. Give me something I can work with!"
黑密斯发送给我的信息再清楚不过了,一个吻等于一锅汤,我几乎能听到他的吼声,“你们在相爱,亲爱的,他就快死了,给我一个可操作的理由!
"All right," he whispers.
“好的。”他轻声说。
I step out in the cool evening air just as the parachute floats down from the sky. My fingers quickly undo the tie, hoping for some real medicine to treat Peeta's leg. Instead I find a pot of hot broth.
我走到洞外凉爽的空气中,这时看到一只降落伞正飘落下来。我赶快把带子解开,希望能送来给皮塔治腿伤的药物,但只是一锅热肉汤。
"But I --" he insists.
“可我——”他坚持要说。
Never having been in love, this is going to be a real trick. I think of my parents. The way my father never failed to bring her gifts from the woods. The way my mother's face would light up at the sound of his boots at the door. The way she almost stopped living when he died.
我从没恋爱过,而这第一次的恋爱却纯粹是个计谋。我想起自己的父母,爸爸永远都会从林子里给妈妈带回礼物,妈妈听到爸爸的脚步声,就会立刻喜上眉梢,爸爸过世时她的生命比几乎停止了。
"Peeta!" I say, trying for the special tone that my mother used only with my father. He's dozed off again, but I kiss him awake, which seems to startle him. Then he smiles as if he'd be happy to lie there gazing at me forever. He's great at this stuff.
“皮塔。”我说,尝试着用妈妈对爸爸讲话的口吻。他又睡着了,可我把他吻醒了,他好像很吃惊。之后,他面带微笑地看着我,好像愿意永远这么看着我。他在这方面还真挺擅长。
I hold up the pot. "Peeta, look what Haymitch has sent you."
我把锅举起来,“皮塔,瞧,黑密斯给你送什么来了。