The Training Center has a tower designed exclusively for the tributes and their teams. This will be our home until the actual Games begin. Each district has an entire floor. You simply step onto an elevator and press the number of your district. Easy enough to remember.
训练中心专为“贡品”和他们的团队设计了一座大楼,比赛正式开始前我们都会住在这里。每个区各占整个一层楼。只需登上电梯,按下所属辖区的按钮,就会到达所在楼层。简便易记。
Apparently, Effie Trinket's duties did not conclude at the station. She and Haymitch will be overseeing us right into the arena. In a way, that's a plus because at least she can be counted on to corral us around to places on time whereas we haven't seen Haymitch since he agreed to help us on the train. Probably passed out somewhere. Effie Trinket, on the other hand, seems to be flying high. We're the first team she's ever chaperoned that made a splash at the opening ceremonies. She's complimentary about not just our costumes but how we conducted ourselves. And, to hear her tell it, Effie knows everyone who's anyone in the Capitol and has been talking us up all day, trying to win us sponsors.
显然,艾菲特琳奇的使命远未在车站结束。她和黑密斯还要监督我们,直至我们进入竞技场。从某种意义上讲,她的工作也是有意义的,至少她可以在规定时间内把我们带入场;而黑密斯自从在火车上答应要帮助我们,到现在还没露过面,也许醉倒在什么地方了。而艾菲特琳奇,却情绪高涨。在她送出的选手中,我们是第一对在开幕式上大放异彩的选手。她不仅对我们的服装大家夸赞,还对我们的表现多有褒词。艾菲特琳奇在凯匹特上上下下都很熟络,而她一整天不停地在谈论我们,设法为我们争得赞助。
I've ridden the elevator a couple of times in the Justice Building back in District 12. Once to receive the medal for my father's death and then yesterday to say my final good-byes to my friends and family. But that's a dark and creaky thing that moves like a snail and smells of sour milk. The walls of this elevator are made of crystal so that you can watch the people on the ground floor shrink to ants as you shoot up into the air. It's exhilarating and I'm tempted to ask Effie Trinket if we can ride it again, but somehow that seems childish.
我以前在十二区的法院大楼坐过电梯。一次是爸爸过世时去领奖章时坐过,还有一次是昨天早晨和朋友及家人说再见的时候。可那里的电梯昏暗无光,上升的时候咯吱吱响,像蜗牛一样慢,还有股酸奶的臭味。可这里的电梯四面水晶,快速上升时可以看到地面的人缩小成蚂蚁那么大。乘坐这种电梯真是太令人兴奋了,我真想问问艾菲特琳奇我们能否再坐一次,可又觉得那么做太孩子气了。
"I've been very mysterious, though," she says, her eyes squint half shut. "Because, of course, Haymitch hasn't bothered to tell me your strategies. But I've done my best with what I had to work with. How Katniss sacrificed herself for her sister. How you've both successfully struggled to overcome the barbarism of your district."
“我说话时尽量保持神秘感,”她说着,眼睛半眯着斜向一边,“当然,黑密斯也没告诉过我你们的计划,可我已尽我所能地说服他们。我告诉他们凯特尼斯怎样为了妹妹牺牲自己呀,你们两人怎样在本辖区野蛮的环境中生存呀等等。
Barbarism? That's ironic coming from a woman helping to prepare us for slaughter. And what's she basing our success on? Our table manners?
野蛮?从一个为屠宰我们做准备的女人嘴里说出这话,真是讽刺。我们靠什么赢呢?难道靠我们的就餐礼节吗?
"Everyone has their reservations, naturally. You being from the coal district. But I said, and this was very clever of me, I said, 'Well, if you put enough pressure on coal it turns to pearls!'" Effie beams at us so brilliantly that we have no choice but to respond enthusiastically to her cleverness even though it's wrong.
“自然,每个人都有自己的优势。你们是采矿区来的。可我说,你知道我很聪明,我说,‘嗯,你要是给煤炭足够的压力,它就会变成珍珠!’”艾菲特琳奇讲话时神采飞扬,我们也不得不跟着她情绪高涨,饶有兴味地听她讲自己有多么聪明,可我们内心并不觉得她聪明。
Coal doesn't turn to pearls. They grow in shellfish. Possibly she meant coal turns to diamonds, but that's untrue, too. I've heard they have some sort of machine in District 1 that can turn graphite into diamonds. But we don't mine graphite in District 12. That was part of District 13's job until they were destroyed.
珍珠长在贝壳里而不是由煤炭变成。也许她想说煤炭变成钻石,可也不对。我倒是听说一区有种机器,可以把石墨变成钻石。可我们十二区也不生产石墨。十三区被摧毁前倒是生产石墨。
Although lacking in many departments, Effie Trinket has a certain determination I have to admire.
尽管许多部门办事拖沓,可艾菲特琳奇办事确实果断坚定,令我钦敬。
"Unfortunately, I can't seal the sponsor deals for you. Only Haymitch can do that," says Effie grimly. "But don't worry, I'll get him to the table at gunpoint if necessary."
“可惜,我不能在赞助合同上盖章,只有黑密斯可以,”艾菲特琳奇表情严肃地说道,“不过别担心,如果有必要用枪口逼着他,我也要把他拉到签字桌旁。
I wonder if the people she's been plugging us to all day either know or care.
我纳闷,她整日在向一些人推荐我们,而这些人是否懂得这些,或者在乎这些。
My quarters are larger than our entire house back home. They are plush, like the train car, but also have so many automatic gadgets that I'm sure I won't have time to press all the buttons. The shower alone has a panel with more than a hundred options you can choose regulating water temperature, pressure, soaps, shampoos, scents, oils, and massaging sponges. When you step out on a mat, heaters come on that blow-dry your body. Instead of struggling with the knots in my wet hair, I merely place my hand on a box that sends a current through my scalp, untangling, parting, and drying my hair almost instantly. It floats down around my shoulders in a glossy curtain.
我的住处比原来在十二区的家还要大,里面像火车包厢一样铺陈豪华。房间里有许多自动装置,可我没有那么多时间去按每一个按钮。仅淋浴房就有上百个选择开关,来调节水温、压力、肥皂、香波、香型、精油和按摩海绵。洗浴完毕,踏上防滑垫时,热风机会自动为你烘干。洗完头发也用不着费力去梳开扭结的头发,只需把手放在控制板上,一股气流会吹干头皮,打开发结,给头发分缝,瞬时,顺滑光亮的头发就会飘在我的肩头。
I program the closet for an outfit to my taste. The windows zoom in and out on parts of the city at my command. You need only whisper a type of food from a gigantic menu into a mouthpiece and it appears, hot and steamy, before you in less than a minute. I walk around the room eating goose liver and puffy bread until there's a knock on the door. Effie's calling me to dinner.
我把衣橱按照自己的喜好进行排序。巨大的窗户按我的指令自动开关,把城市的景色邀入眼帘或拒之室外。只要对着话筒轻声说出写在巨型菜单上的任何一道菜,冷热蒸炸,立时就会出现在眼前。我在室内踱着方步,吃着鹅肝和松软的面包,这时听到了敲门声,是艾菲,她叫我去吃饭。
Peeta, Cinna, and Portia are standing out on a balcony that overlooks the Capitol when we enter the dining room. I'm glad to see the stylists, particularly after I hear that Haymitch will be joining us. A meal presided over by just Effie and Haymitch is bound to be a disaster. Besides, dinner isn't really about food, it's about planning out our strategies, and Cinna and Portia have already proven how valuable they are.
我们走进餐厅时,皮塔、西纳和波西娅正站在阳台上,从这里可以俯瞰凯匹特城。我很高兴见到两位设计师,特别是得知黑密斯也要来之后。如果晚饭时艾菲和黑密斯碰头,他们很可能会不欢而散,那就糟了;再说,晚餐不仅仅和吃饭有关,还要讨论我们的制敌策略;西纳和波西娅成功也说明了他们的意见十分宝贵。
Good. I'm starving.
好啊,我正饿着呢!
Haymitch shows up just as dinner is being served. It looks as if he's had his own stylist because he's clean and groomed and about as sober as I've ever seen him. He doesn't refuse the offer of wine, but when he starts in on his soup, I realize it's the first time I've ever seen him eat. Maybe he really will pull himself together long enough to help us.
正要上菜的时候,黑密斯出现了。他好像也有自己的设计师,看上去干净整洁,表情严肃,我以前从没见过他这样。他没有拒绝葡萄酒,但当他开始喝汤时,我突然觉得这是第一次看见他吃饭。也许这次他真能在足够长的时间内打起精神,来帮助我们。
A silent young man dressed in a white tunic offers us all stemmed glasses of wine. I think about turning it down, but I've never had wine, except the homemade stuff my mother uses for coughs, and when will I get a chance to try it again? I take a sip of the tart, dry liquid and secretly think it could be improved by a few spoonfuls of honey.
一个身穿白色束腰外衣、缄默不语的年轻男士为我们端上了一杯葡萄酒,酒盛在高脚杯里。我本想拒绝,可转而又想,我从没喝过葡萄酒,只在家里喝过妈妈用来治疗咳嗽的家酿甜酒,还有,我什么时候还有机会再品尝葡萄酒呢?我喝了一小口,酸酸的,心想要是加几勺蜂蜜味道会好些。
Cinna and Portia seem to have a civilizing effect on Haymitch and Effie. At least they're addressing each other decently. And they both have nothing but praise for our stylists' opening act. While they make small talk, I concentrate on the meal. Mushroom soup, bitter greens with tomatoes the size of peas, rare roast beef sliced as thin as paper, noodles in a green sauce, cheese that melts on your tongue served with sweet blue grapes. The servers, all young people dressed in white tunics like the one who gave us wine, move wordlessly to and from the table, keeping the platters and glasses full.
西纳和波西娅在场,似乎对黑密斯和艾菲也有所制约,使得他们举止文明得体。至少,他们之间能体面地称呼彼此,他们俩言谈话语中对两位设计师在开幕式上取得的成功也充满溢美之词。在大家小声交谈时,我的心思却都放在晚餐上,蘑菇汤、豌豆大的番茄拌苦苣、像纸一样薄的烤牛排、绿沙司酱通心粉、点缀着甘甜的蓝葡萄、入口即化的奶酪。与上酒的侍者一样,其他侍者也都穿着白色束腰上衣,默默地在餐桌旁忙碌着,为我们添菜加酒。
About halfway through my glass of wine, my head starts feeling foggy, so I change to water instead. I don't like the feeling and hope it wears off soon. How Haymitch can stand walking around like this full-time is a mystery.
杯子里的酒快喝到一半的时候,我觉得有点头晕,就改喝白水。我不喜欢这种感觉,希望它赶快过去。黑密斯是怎么终日在这种状况下行走站立的,对我仍是一个迷。
I try to focus on the talk, which has turned to our interview costumes, when a girl sets a gorgeous-looking cake on the table and deftly lights it. It blazes up and then the flames flicker around the edges awhile until it finally goes out. I have a moment of doubt. "What makes it burn? Is it alcohol?" I say, looking up at the girl. "That's the last thing I wa -- oh! I know you!"
接着我把注意力转移到大家的谈话上,他们正在谈论我们采访时穿的服装,这时一个女侍者坐过来,将一个漂亮的蛋糕放在桌上,熟练地将其点燃。蛋糕燃烧着,吐出美丽的火焰,最后绕着蛋糕边沿一圈又燃烧了一会,直至最终熄灭。我看得入了迷,弄不明白是怎么回事。“它是靠什么燃烧的?是酒精吗?”我抬头问旁边的女侍者。“这是我最不想——噢,我认识你!
"What's an Avox?" I ask stupidly.
“什么是艾瓦克斯?”我傻乎乎地问。
"Don't be ridiculous, Katniss. How could you possibly know an Avox?" snaps Effie. "The very thought."
“别傻了,凯特尼斯,你怎么会认识一个艾瓦克斯呢?”艾菲突然插进来说,“想想就不可能。
When I look back, the four adults are watching me like hawks.
我回过头,发现身后的四个男人像鹰似的正看着我。
"Someone who committed a crime. They cut her tongue so she can't speak," says Haymitch. "She's probably a traitor of some sort. Not likely you'd know her."
“犯过罪的人,她的舌头割掉了,所以不能说话,”黑密斯说,“她也许是个叛国者。你不大可能认识她。
I can't place a name or time to the girl's face. But I'm certain of it. The dark red hair, the striking features, the porcelain white skin. But even as I utter the words, I feel my insides contracting with anxiety and guilt at the sight of her, and while I can't pull it up, I know some bad memory is associated with her. The expression of terror that crosses her face only adds to my confusion and unease. She shakes her head in denial quickly and hurries away from the table.
我想不起她的名字,也不记得何时见过这张脸,但我肯定认识她。黑红色的头发、苗条的身材、像陶瓷一样白皙的皮肤。即使我说这些话时,内心也感到忐忑不安。我一时回忆不起来,但我知道她和一些可怕的记忆有关。她脸上掠过的恐惧更加重了我的迷惑和焦虑。她摇头表示否认,然后迅速从桌子旁边跑开了。
"And even if you did, you're not to speak to one of them unless it's to give an order," says Effie. "Of course, you don't really know her."
“即使你以前认识,除了给他们下命令,不要跟他们说话,”艾菲说,“当然,你不可能认识她。
But I do know her. And now that Haymitch has mentioned the word traitor I remember from where. The disapproval is so high I could never admit it. "No, I guess not, I just --" I stammer, and the wine is not helping.
可我真的认识她。刚才黑密斯提到了“叛国者”,我猛然间想起来在哪里见过她了。人们对她的不屑使我永远不可能承认见过她。“是的,我想我不认识她,我只是…”我一时语塞,看来酒也没起到什么好作用。
"Something about the eyes, too," says Peeta.
“当然,我心里想的是她。准是因为那头发。”我说。
Delly Cartwright is a pasty-faced, lumpy girl with yellowish hair who looks about as much like our server as a beetle does a butterfly. She may also be the friendliest person on the planet -- she smiles constantly at everybody in school, even me. I have never seen the girl with the red hair smile. But I jump on Peeta's suggestion gratefully. "Of course, that's who I was thinking of. It must be the hair," I say.
黛丽卡特莱特是个脸色苍白、身体粗笨、长着黄头发的女孩,她与女侍者相比,就像甲壳虫和蝴蝶。她也许还是地球上最友好的人,在学校时,她总是不停地对人微笑,甚至对我也一样。可我从没见过红头发的侍者微笑。我很感谢皮塔的搭话。
We eat the cake and move into a sitting room to watch the replay of the opening ceremonies that's being broadcast. A few of the other couples make a nice impression, but none of them can hold a candle to us. Even our own party lets out an "Ahh!" as they show us coming out of the Remake Center.
吃完蛋糕。我们到会客室观看正在播出的开幕式录像。有几对选手给人的印象不错,可没人能比得上我们。当大家在录像上看到我们从训练中心出场的时候,不约而同地发出“啊!”的呼声。
Peeta snaps his fingers. "Delly Cartwright. That's who it is. I kept thinking she looked familiar as well. Then I realized she's a dead ringer for Delly."
可皮塔在一旁猛地一打响指,说道:“黛丽卡特莱特,就是她,开始我也觉得她很面熟,后来想起来她跟黛丽长得极像。
The energy at the table relaxes. "Oh, well. If that's all it is," says Cinna. "And yes, the cake has spirits, but all the alcohol has burned off. I ordered it specially in honor of your fiery debut."
餐桌上的紧张气氛缓和下来。“噢,你瞧,就这么回事,”西纳说道,“是的,蛋糕上是有酒精,但都完全燃烧了。我特别定制这个蛋糕来纪念你们在火光中的新起点。
"Whose idea was the hand holding?" asks Haymitch.
“拉手是谁的主意?”黑密斯问道。
"Just the perfect touch of rebellion," says Haymitch. "Very nice."
“有点反叛的意思,掌握得恰到好处。”黑密斯说。“非常好
"Cinna's," says Portia.
“是西纳。”波西娅说。
"Tomorrow morning is the first training session. Meet me for breakfast and I'll tell you exactly how I want you to play it," says Haymitch to Peeta and me. "Now go get some sleep while the grown-ups talk."
“明天早晨第一阶段训练开始。早饭时我们碰头,我会告诉你们到底该怎么做。”黑密斯对皮塔和我说,“现在,大人说话,你们先去睡吧。
Rebellion? I have to think about that one a moment.
反叛?我得好好想想这话的意思。
But when I remember the other couples, standing stiffly apart, never touching or acknowledging each other, as if their fellow tribute did not exist, as if the Games had already begun, I know what Haymitch means. Presenting ourselves not as adversaries but as friends has distinguished us as much as the fiery costumes.
我回想其他各区的每对选手,他们在战车上分开站着,身体僵直,谁也不碰谁,好像对方不存在,猎杀游戏也已经开始。我明白了黑密斯的意思。让我们作为朋友而非对手来亮相,足以使我们与众不同,和我们的火焰服装一样不同凡响。
Peeta and I walk together down the corridor to our rooms. When we get to my door, he leans against the frame, not blocking my entrance exactly but insisting I pay attention to him. "So, Delly Cartwright. Imagine finding her lookalike here."
我和皮塔沿走廊回房间。到我房间门口时,皮塔靠在门框上,身体半堵着门,显然是为了让我仔细听他说话。“那么,黛丽卡特莱特。想象一下,我们怎么在这见到和她长相一样的人?
He's asking for an explanation, and I'm tempted to give him one. We both know he covered for me. So here I am in his debt again. If I tell him the truth about the girl, somehow that might even things up. How can it hurt really? Even if he repeated the story, it couldn't do me much harm. It was just something I witnessed. And he lied as much as I did about Delly Cartwright.
他这么说是想让我来解释这件事,我在心里琢磨这话该怎么说。他刚才有意用话替我遮掩,这点我俩心里都明白,这样我又欠了他的情。那女孩的事,如果我跟他实话实说,我们也就扯平了。反正,说了又能碍着谁呢?就算他在别处鹦鹉学舌,也对我无碍,因为我只说出自己的亲眼所见;再说,黛丽卡特莱特的事,他同样也撒了谎。
I realize I do want to talk to someone about the girl. Someone who might be able to help me figure out her story.
我也想把那女孩的事跟人说说,也能帮我想明白。
Besides, the idea of the girl with her maimed tongue frightens me. She has reminded me why I'm here. Not to model flashy costumes and eat delicacies. But to die a bloody death while the crowds urge on my killer.
另外,一想起那女孩的舌头被割掉,我就无比恐惧。她的出现提醒了我自己究竟到这里是干什么来了,不是为了炫耀华丽的服装,也不是为了品尝美味的食品,而是要面对血淋淋的死亡,面对为杀死我的人鼓劲加油的观众。
Gale would be my first choice, but it's unlikely I'll ever see Gale again. I try to think if telling Peeta could give him any possible advantage over me, but I don't see how. Maybe sharing a confidence will actually make him believe I see him as a friend.
盖尔是第一个我想告诉的人,可我不大可能再见到他了。我心中细想,要是告诉皮塔会不会让他比我更有优势,可又不知是什么。也许把机密的事告诉他,会让他觉得我真心把他当朋友看。
Peeta picks up on my hesitation. "Have you been on the roof yet?" I shake my head. "Cinna showed me. You can practically see the whole city. The wind's a bit loud, though."
皮塔觉察到我在犹豫。“你上过楼顶了吗?”他问,我摇摇头。“西纳领我去看了,几乎能看到整个城市,就是风有点儿大。
To tell or not to tell? My brain still feels slow from the wine. I stare down the empty corridor as if the decision lies there.
是告诉他还是不告诉呢?因为喝了酒,我的大脑反应有些迟钝。我盯着空空的走廊,好像答案就摆在那里。
I translate this into "No one will overhear us talking" in my head. You do have the sense that we might be under surveillance here. "Can we just go up?"
我在心里把他的话理解成“没人会听见我们谈话”。在这种地方,确实有被监控的感觉。“我们上去好吗?”我说。
"Sure, come on," says Peeta. I follow him to a flight of stairs that lead to the roof. There's a small dome-shaped room with a door to the outside. As we step into the cool, windy evening air, I catch my breath at the view. The Capitol twinkles like a vast field of fireflies. Electricity in District 12 comes and goes, usually we only have it a few hours a day. Often the evenings are spent in candlelight. The only time you can count on it is when they're airing the Games or some important government message on television that it's mandatory to watch. But here there would be no shortage. Ever.
“当然,走吧。”皮塔说。我跟在他身后,登上通往楼顶的台阶。楼顶有一个圆拱形的房间,一扇门通往室外。我走出去,外面的空气很凉爽,风也听大。我被眼前的景象惊呆了。凯匹特夜晚好像有无数的萤火虫在闪耀。十二区的供电时有时无,一般情况下只有几小时供电,多数的夜晚都用蜡烛照明,唯一不断电的时候就是转播猎杀游戏或有重要电视新闻时。可这里不会断电,永远不会。
Peeta and I walk to a railing at the edge of the roof. I look straight down the side of the building to the street, which is buzzing with people. You can hear their cars, an occasional shout, and a strange metallic tinkling. In District 12, we'd all be thinking about bed right now.
皮塔和我走到楼边的栏杆处,我从楼顶直直地向下望去。大街上车水马龙,可以听到汽车的呜呜声、人们的喊叫声,还有奇怪的金属敲击声。在十二区,我们现在能想的只有上床睡觉了。
"I asked Cinna why they let us up here. Weren't they worried that some of the tributes might decide to jump right over the side?" says Peeta.
“我问西纳为什么把我们领到这里来,难道他们不担心有的‘贡品’从这跳下去吗?”皮塔说。
"What'd he say?" I ask.
“他说什么?”我问。
"You can't," says Peeta. He holds out his hand into seemingly empty space. There's a sharp zap and he jerks it back. "Some kind of electric field throws you back on the roof."
“你们跳不成。”皮塔说。他把手伸出来,伸向空荡荡的前方。接着听到“呲呲”的声音,他人也被弹了回来。“这儿有电网,会把人弹回屋顶。
"Maybe," he admits. "Come see the garden."
“或许吧,”他承认,“来看看花园吧。
"Always worried about our safety," I say. Even though Cinna has shown Peeta the roof, I wonder if we're supposed to be up here now, so late and alone. I've never seen tributes on the Training Center roof before. But that doesn't mean we're not being taped. "Do you think they're watching us now?"
“总担心我们的安全。”我说。就算西纳带皮塔来过楼顶,可我仍担心此时我们是否被允许来这儿。天已经很晚了,我们孤伶伶的。我以前在电视上看到过培训中心的“贡品”来到楼顶。可这并不意味着我们此时没有监视器监控。“你觉得现在他们正在监视我们吗?
I pretend to examine a blossom. "We were hunting in the woods one day. Hidden, waiting for game," I whisper.
我假装欣赏一个花朵。“一天我们去在林子里打猎,藏在那,等着猎物经过。”我轻声说道。
On the other side of the dome, they've built a garden with flower beds and potted trees. From the branches hang hundreds of wind chimes, which account for the tinkling I heard. Here in the garden, on this windy night, it's enough to drown out two people who are trying not to be heard. Peeta looks at me expectantly.
在圆顶的另一端,有一个花园,里面有花坛和盆栽的树木。从枝条上垂下数百个风铃,我刚才听到的声音就是从这里发出的。在这个花园,这大风的夜晚,两个不想被人偷听的人的说话声很容易就被淹没了。皮塔用期待的眼神看着我。
"You and your father?" he whispers back.
“你和你爸爸?”他也轻声问道。
"No, my friend Gale. Suddenly all the birds stopped singing at once. Except one. As if it were giving a warning call. And then we saw her. I'm sure it was the same girl. A boy was with her. Their clothes were tattered. They had dark circles under their eyes from no sleep. They were running as if their lives depended on it," I say.
“不,和我朋友盖尔。突然所有的鸟都不叫了,只有一只鸟除外,它发出了警告的鸣叫。这时她出现了。我肯定是同一个女孩。她跟一个男孩在一起。他们的衣服很破,大概因为没睡觉吧,眼圈乌青。他们拼命跑着,像在逃命。”我说。
For a moment I'm silent, as I remember how the sight of this strange pair, clearly not from District 12, fleeing through the woods immobilized us. Later, we wondered if we could have helped them escape. Perhaps we might have. Concealed them. If we'd moved quickly. Gale and I were taken by surprise, yes, but we're both hunters. We know how animals look at bay. We knew the pair was in trouble as soon as we saw them. But we only watched.
我沉默了一会,回想着这两个人在林子里狂奔逃命的情形,他们明显不是十二区的人。猛然间看到他们,我们呆立着,不知如何是好。接着我们想是否应该帮他们逃脱,如果动作快,兴许可以把他们藏起来。没错,盖尔和我当时都惊呆了,可我们是猎手,知道猎物陷入绝境时的样子,一看见这两个人,我们就知道他们有麻烦。可那时我们只是看着,没动。
"The hovercraft appeared out of nowhere," I continue to Peeta. "I mean, one moment the sky was empty and the next it was there. It didn't make a sound, but they saw it. A net dropped down on the girl and carried her up, fast, so fast like the elevator. They shot some sort of spear through the boy. It was attached to a cable and they hauled him up as well. But I'm certain he was dead. We heard the girl scream once. The boy's name, I think. Then it was gone, the hovercraft. Vanished into thin air. And the birds began to sing again, as if nothing had happened."
“直升飞机从天而降,”我继续对皮塔说,“我是说,刚刚天上什么也没有,瞬间飞机就出现了。飞机悄然无声,可他们已经看见了。上面撒下一张网罩住女孩,然后把她拉了上去,拉得很快,就像电梯一样。他们又冲男孩扔下一只带绳索的长矛,他也被拽了上去。但我肯定他已经死了。我们还听到那女孩的一声喊叫,叫的是男孩的名字,我想。然后直升机就消失了,消失在空中。鸟又开始鸣叫,好像一切都没发生。
"Did they see you?" Peeta asked.
“他们看见你们了吗?”皮塔问。
"I don't know. We were under a shelf of rock," I reply.
“不知道,我们藏在岩石下面。”我回答。
"Where do you suppose they were going?" he asks.
“你觉得他们要去哪?”他问。
"You're shivering," says Peeta.
“你在发抖。”皮塔说。
Peeta takes off his jacket and wraps it around my shoulders. I start to take a step back, but then I let him, deciding for a moment to accept both his jacket and his kindness. A friend would do that, right?
皮塔脱掉夹克,准备披在我的肩上。我不由得向后退了一步,稍作犹豫,随后决定接受他的一番好意,让他给我披上夹克。朋友自然会这么做的,不是吗?
But I do know. There was a moment, after the birdcall, but before the hovercraft, where the girl had seen us. She'd locked eyes with me and called out for help. But neither Gale or I had responded.
其实我知道。在鸟叫戛然而止,直升机出现之前的一瞬间,女孩已看见了我们,她目不转睛的看着我们,露出求救的眼神,可是不管盖尔还是我都没做出反应。
The wind and the story have blown all the warmth from my body. The girl's scream. Had it been her last?
这风和这故事已经带走了我身上所有的热量,令我不寒而栗。那女孩可怕的嘶喊,那是她最后的喊声吗?
"They were from here?" he asks, and he secures a button at my neck.
“他们是从这儿来的吗?”他问,说着把我领口的扣子系上。
I nod. They'd had that Capitol look about them. The boy and the girl.
我点点头,那男孩和女孩,他们看上去就是凯匹特人。
"I don't know that," I say. District 12 is pretty much the end of the line. Beyond us, there's only wilderness. If you don't count the ruins of District 13 that still smolder from the toxic bombs. They show it on television occasionally, just to remind us. "Or why they would leave here."
“这我不知道。”我说。十二区的消息总是很闭塞。我们四周,都是野地,还不算被毒气弹消灭的十三区的一片荒野。十三区的景象偶尔会在电视上播出,以时时提醒我们。“或者说为什么要离开这里?”我说。
"I'd leave here," Peeta blurts out. Then he looks around nervously. It was loud enough to hear above the chimes. He laughs. "I'd go home now if they let me. But you have to admit, the food's prime."
“我得离开这。”皮塔突然说道。他紧张地看着四周。声音很大,超出风铃的声音。他笑着说道:“要是他们允许,我会回家的,不过不得不承认这里的食物是一流的。
Haymitch had called the Avoxes traitors. Against what? It could only be the Capitol. But they had everything here. No cause to rebel.
黑密斯称那个艾瓦克斯为叛逆者。究竟为什么而叛逆呢?只可能是凯匹特的叛逆者。可他们在这里无所不有,没有叛逆的理由啊!
"It's getting chilly. We better go in," he says. Inside the dome, it's warm and bright. His tone is conversational. "Your friend Gale. He's the one who took your sister away at the reaping?"
“天冷了,我们最好进去吧。”他说。圆顶房内温暖而明亮。他用平时说话的口吻问道:“你的朋友盖尔,就是在收获节仪式上拉走你妹妹的那个人吧?
"Not really. I hear the girls talk about him a lot. I thought he was your cousin or something. You favor each other," he says.
“不这么认识,我总听那些女孩们谈起他。我原以为他是你得堂兄什么的。你们很投缘啊。”他说。
"No, we're not related," I say.
“嗯,我们不是亲戚。”我说。
He's covered again. If that's all you'd heard it would just sound like the words of a scared tribute, not someone contemplating the unquestionable goodness of the Capitol.
他又在打掩护,如果有人听到,也不过觉得是胆小的“贡品”所说的话,不会认为有人对凯匹特的统治表示怀疑。
Peeta nods, unreadable. "Did he come to say good-bye to you?"
皮塔点点头,觉得不可理解。“他来跟你送别了吗?
"Yes," I say, observing him carefully. "So did your father. He brought me cookies."
“来啦,”我说,同时小心翼翼地观察他的反应。“你爸爸也来啦,他还给我带来了甜饼。
"Yes. Do you know him?" I ask.
“是的,你认识他?”我问。
Peeta raises his eyebrows as if this is news. But after watching him lie so smoothly, I don't give this much weight.
皮塔抬起眉毛,好像他头回听说。可看他撒谎这么自然,我也没太往心里去。
We're at my door. I give back his jacket. "See you in the morning then."
这时我们已来到我的门口,我把夹克还给他。“那么,明天早晨见。
The idea that I might ever have been discussed, around the dinner table, at the bakery fire, just in passing in Peeta's house gives me a start. It must have been when the mother was out of the room.
我可能曾经是他们议论的话题,在餐桌旁、在烤炉边、或者仅仅是我从皮塔家经过的时候,这么一想,我马上惊醒起来,他们谈论我,肯定也是他妈妈不在的时候。
"He knew your mother when they were kids," says Peeta.
“你妈妈小得时候,他们就认识。”皮塔说。
"Really? Well, he likes you and your sister. I think he wishes he had a daughter instead of a houseful of boys."
“真的吗?是啊,他对你和你妹妹印象很好,和男孩相比,我觉得他更愿要个女孩。
"See you," he says, and walks off down the hall.
“明天见。”他说,然后顺着走廊回去了。
When I open my door, the redheaded girl is collecting my unitard and boots from where I left them on the floor before my shower. I want to apologize for possibly getting her in trouble earlier. But I remember I'm not supposed to speak to her unless I'm giving her an order.
我打开门时,红头发女孩正在收拾我的紧身衣和靴子,我洗澡前把它们扔在地板上了。这么快就给她舔麻烦,我想对她说声抱歉。可突然想起来我不应跟她说话,除非是下命令。
Another surprise. But probably true. "Oh, yes. She grew up in town," I say. It seems impolite to say she never mentioned the baker except to compliment his bread.
他这么说,让我吃了一惊,这很可能是真的。我琢磨着话该怎么说,如果我说妈妈只夸过他们的面包而从没提起过面包师,显得不太礼貌。于是我说:“啊,是的,她是在城里长大的。
I'd set out to tell her I was sorry about dinner. But I know that my apology runs much deeper. That I'm ashamed I never tried to help her in the woods. That I let the Capitol kill the boy and mutilate her without lifting a finger.
我真想为吃饭时的事跟她说声对不起。可我知道自己的歉意远不止这些。我在林子里没有帮她感到羞愧。我眼看着凯匹特人杀死那个男孩、又打伤她而没有抬一个指头。
She avoids my eyes, gives a small nod, and heads out the door.
她避开我的视线,轻点了下头,朝门口走去。
"Oh, sorry," I say. "I was supposed to get those back to Cinna. I'm sorry. Can you take them to him?"
“噢,对不起,”我说,“我该把它还给西纳,不好意思,你能把这些衣服拿给他吗?
Just like I was watching the Games.
就像在观看猎杀游戏。
I wonder if she'll enjoy watching me die.
我不知道她是不是很高兴看到我死去呢?
I kick off my shoes and climb under the covers in my clothes. The shivering hasn't stopped. Perhaps the girl doesn't even remember me. But I know she does. You don't forget the face of the person who was your last hope. I pull the covers up over my head as if this will protect me from the redheaded girl who can't speak. But I can feel her eyes staring at me, piercing through walls and doors and bedding.
我踢掉鞋子,没脱衣服就钻进了被窝。我仍在发抖。这个女孩也许已把我望了,可我知道她应该还没忘。对于一个曾寄托着你最后的希望人,是不会忘记的。我用被单蒙住脸,好像这样就能把那个不会说话的红发女孩的记忆抹去。可我感觉她正用眼睛盯着我,她的目光穿透了墙壁、门窗和被褥。