Dawn is breaking through the windows. The Capitol has a misty, haunted air. My head aches and I must have bitten into the side of my cheek in the night. My tongue probes the ragged flesh and I taste blood.
晨光透过窗户照射到屋子里,凯匹特的天空被薄雾笼罩着,阴气沉沉的。我头很疼,而且晚上准是咬着腮帮子了,我用舌头舔舔咬破的地方,感觉有股血腥味。
My slumbers are filled with disturbing dreams. The face of the redheaded girl intertwines with gory images from earlier Hunger Games, with my mother withdrawn and unreachable, with Prim emaciated and terrified. I bolt up screaming for my father to run as the mine explodes into a million deadly bits of light.
睡觉时,我噩梦连连,红发女孩的脸和以前猎杀游戏中血淋淋的影像交织在一起;妈妈柔弱退缩,我总是够不到她;波丽姆显得那么孱弱和恐惧;我大喊着让爸爸快跑,而矿井爆炸,散射出了千万个死亡的光点。
Slowly, I drag myself out of bed and into the shower. I arbitrarily punch buttons on the control board and end up hopping from foot to foot as alternating jets of icy cold and steaming hot water assault me. Then I'm deluged in lemony foam that I have to scrape off with a heavy bristled brush. Oh, well. At least my blood is flowing.
慢慢地,我从床上爬起来,走进浴室。我随意按下控制板上的按钮,一股冰凉的水流和一股滚烫的水流交替从我的脚下喷出来,接着柠檬味的泡沫浴液把我淹没,我不得不用硬毛刷把它刷掉。噢,好吧,至少我的血流加快了。
When I'm dried and moisturized with lotion, I find an outfit has been left for me at the front of the closet. Tight black pants, a long-sleeved burgundy tunic, and leather shoes. I put my hair in the single braid down my back. This is the first time since the morning of the reaping that I resemble myself. No fancy hair and clothes, no flaming capes. Just me. Looking like I could be headed for the woods. It calms me.
我擦干身子,抹上润肤露,从浴室出来时,发现衣橱最外侧已经准备好了一套衣服。紧身黑裤、长袖勃艮第束腰外衣和皮鞋。我梳起一根长辫。从收获节仪式的那天早上到现在,我还是第一次打扮得比较像平时的自己。没有奇异的发式和服装,没有燃烧的斗篷。就是我,看上去就要去树林子里的样子,这让我觉得很踏实。
My mind wanders to my mother and Prim. They must be up. My mother getting their breakfast of mush. Prim milking her goat before school. Just two mornings ago, I was home. Can that be right? Yes, just two. And now how empty the house feels, even from a distance. What did they say last night about my fiery debut at the Games? Did it give them hope, or simply add to their terror when they saw the reality of twenty-four tributes circled together, knowing only one could live?
我的思绪又飞回到妈妈和波丽姆那里。她们肯定已经起床了。妈妈正在准备玉米粥,做早餐,波丽姆上学前要给羊挤奶。两天前。我还在家里。这时真的吗?是的,就两天。可现在家里显得空荡荡的,即使远在这里也能感觉到。有关我昨天在火光中的开场,她们又说了些什么?当她们看到围成一圈的二十四个选手,只有一个能够存活时,这一切为她们增添的希望还是加重了恐惧?
Haymitch didn't give us an exact time to meet for breakfast and no one has contacted me this morning, but I'm hungry so I head down to the dining room, hoping there will be food. I'm not disappointed. While the table is empty, a long board off to the side has been laid with at least twenty dishes. A young man, an Avox, stands at attention by the spread. When I ask if I can serve myself, he nods assent. I load a plate with eggs, sausages, batter cakes covered in thick orange preserves, slices of pale purple melon. As I gorge myself, I watch the sun rise over the Capitol. I have a second plate of hot grain smothered in beef stew. Finally, I fill a plate with rolls and sit at the table, breaking off bits and dipping them into hot chocolate, the way Peeta did on the train.
黑密斯没有给我们定早饭见面的具体时间,今早也没人跟我联系。我已饿了,就自顾自地来到餐厅,希望能有饭吃。我没有失望,中间的餐桌上没有摆放食品,可靠边的长桌上却摆着至少二十道菜。一个年轻的男艾瓦克斯恭敬地站在桌旁。我问他是否可以自取食物时,他点点头。于是我在餐盘上放入鸡蛋、香肠、铺着厚厚一层橘子蜜饯的蛋糕、淡紫色的香瓜片。我边大嚼着食物,边看着太阳在凯匹特上空冉冉升起。我又盛了一盘浇着炖牛肉的热米饭。最后,盛满一盘蛋卷,坐在桌旁,把蛋卷一点点撕开,沾着热巧克力吃,跟皮塔在火车上的吃法一样。
When Haymitch has finished several platters of stew, he pushes back his plate with a sigh. He takes a flask from his pocket and takes a long pull on it and leans his elbows on the table. "So, let's get down to business. Training. First off, if you like, I'll coach you separately. Decide now."
黑密斯吃完了几盘炖菜,他叹口气把盘子从面前推开,从衣袋里拿出一个长颈瓶子,长长地吸了一口,然后把臂肘靠在桌子上。“那么,咱么说正事吧。训练。如果你们愿意,可以退出,我对你们进行个别训练。现在就决定。
I'm nervous about the training. There will be three days in which all the tributes practice together. On the last afternoon, we'll each get a chance to perform in private before the Gamemakers. The thought of meeting the other tributes face-to-face makes me queasy. I turn the roll I have just taken from the basket over and over in my hands, but my appetite is gone.
即将开始的训练让我感到紧张。在三天的时间里,所有的“贡品”将会一起训练。到最后一天的下午,我们可以在竞赛组织者面前进行私下演练。一想到要和其他选手面对面训练,我就觉得心神不宁。我把刚从篮子里拿来的蛋卷在手指转来转去,已经没有胃口了。
Haymitch and Peeta come in, bid me good morning, fill their plates. It makes me irritated that Peeta is wearing exactly the same outfit I am. I need to say something to Cinna. This twins act is going to blow up in our faces once the Games begin. Surely, they must know this. Then I remember Haymitch telling me to do exactly what the stylists tell me to do. If it was anyone but Cinna, I might be tempted to ignore him. But after last night's triumph, I don't have a lot of room to criticize his choices.
黑密斯和皮塔来了,问过好,然后在盘子里盛满食物。皮塔的服装竟然和一模一样,这让我恼火。我得跟西纳说说这事。猎杀游戏一开始,我们这种双胞胎似的着装肯定会让我们尴尬无比。很肯定,他们必须知道这一点。接着我又想起黑密斯让我们完全听从设计师的安排。我很想不理会他的话,可经历了昨晚的成功,我对他的选择似乎也无可厚非。
I never thought about Peeta eating the squirrels I shot. Somehow I always pictured the baker quietly going off and frying them up for himself. Not out of greed. But because town families usually eat expensive butcher meat. Beef and chicken and horse.
皮塔吃过我打的松鼠,这我还真没想过。我一直觉得是面包师悄悄的把松鼠拿走,然后自己炸着吃。不是因为贪婪,而是通常城里人都会吃昂贵的猪肉、牛肉、鸡肉和马肉。
I exchange a look with Peeta. "I don't have any secret skills," he says. "And I already know what yours is, right? I mean, I've eaten enough of your squirrels."
我和皮塔交换了一下眼神。“我没什么秘诀,”皮塔说,“可我已经知道你的秘诀,对吧?我是说,我已经吃了很多你打的松鼠。
"All right, so give me some idea of what you can do," says Haymitch.
“好吧,让我看看你们俩都会什么。”黑密斯说。
"I can't do anything," says Peeta. "Unless you count baking bread."
“我什么都不会,除非给烤面包数数也算在内。”皮塔说。
"Not really. But I can hunt," I say. "With a bow and arrow."
“也不太会,不过我会打猎,”我说,“用弓和箭。
"You can coach us together," I tell Haymitch. Peeta nods.
“你可以让我们俩一起训练。”我对黑密斯说,皮塔点点头。
"And you're good?" asks Haymitch.
“你射箭还不错?”黑密斯问。
I have to think about it. I've been putting food on the table for four years. That's no small task. I'm not as good as my father was, but he'd had more practice. I've better aim than Gale, but I've had more practice. He's a genius with traps and snares.
这个我要好好想想。给家人打食,已经四年了,这可不是件容易事,我射箭不如爸爸好,可他练得也多呀。我瞄准比盖尔强,可我练得也比他多。可他在诱捕猎物方面是个天才。
"Why would you coach us separately?" I ask.
“为什么要对我们进行个别训练?”我问。
"Sorry, I don't. Katniss. I already know you're handy with a knife," says Haymitch.
“对不起,那不算。凯特尼斯,我知道你会使刀。”黑密斯说。
"Say if you had a secret skill you might not want the other to know about," says Haymitch.
“这么说吧,你要是有什么秘诀,可以不让别人知道。”黑密斯说。
"I'm all right," I say.
“我还行吧。”我说。
"She's excellent," says Peeta. "My father buys her squirrels. He always comments on how the arrows never pierce the body. She hits every one in the eye. It's the same with the rabbits she sells the butcher. She can even bring down deer."
“她很棒。”皮塔说,“我爸爸经常买她的松鼠。他总说箭头没有穿过松鼠身体,都是打在眼上。她卖给肉铺的兔子也一样,她甚至能打到鹿。
I don't know why, but this rubs me the wrong way.
不知为什么,他这么说让我不舒服。
This assessment of my skills from Peeta takes me totally by surprise. First, that he ever noticed. Second, that he's talking me up.
皮塔对我的猎物的评价真让我大吃一惊。首先,他能观察到这些细节,其次,他在使劲夸我。
"What are you doing? If he's going to help you, he has to know what you're capable of. Don't underrate yourself," says Peeta.
“干嘛?如果他要帮你,就得知道你会什么,别低估了自己呀。”皮塔说。
"What are you doing?" I ask him suspiciously.
“你干嘛呢?”我不无怀疑地说。
"What about you? I've seen you in the market. You can lift hundred-pound bags of flour," I snap at him. "Tell him that. That's not nothing."
“你呢?我在市场上见过你,你可以扛起一百磅重的面袋。跟他说呀,这也很不简单。”我抢白他说。
"He can wrestle," I tell Haymitch. "He came in second in our school competition last year, only after his brother."
“他会摔跤,”我对黑密斯说“他去年在我们学校摔跤比赛上得了第二名,就比他哥哥差一点。
"Yes, and I'm sure the arena will be full of bags of flour for me to chuck at people. It's not like being able to use a weapon. You know it isn't," he shoots back.
“是啊,我敢肯定竞技场到处都是面袋,好让我拿来砸人。这和会使用武器不一样。这你知道,不一样。”他反驳道,也不依不饶。
"But you won't! You'll be living up in some tree eating raw squirrels and picking off people with arrows. You know what my mother said to me when she came to say good-bye, as if to cheer me up, she says maybe District Twelve will finally have a winner. Then I realized, she didn't mean me, she meant you!" bursts out Peeta.
“你不会的,在丛林里,你可以靠生吃松鼠肉活着,用弓箭一个个结果他们的性命。你知道,我妈来给我告别的时候,说了些鼓励我的话,她说也许最终十二区能获胜。后来我意识到,他根本不是在说我,她说的是你。”皮塔大声而急促地说道。
"Oh, she meant you," I say with a wave of dismissal.
“噢,她说的是你。”我不假思索地说道。
"There's always hand-to-hand combat. All you need is to come up with a knife, and you'll at least stand a chance. If I get jumped, I'm dead!" I can hear my voice rising in anger.
“比赛中总会遇到徒手搏斗,只要有把刀,就有很大的胜算。如果我被扑到,那我就死定了!”我的声音因为气愤已经升高了。
"She said, 'She's a survivor, that one.' She is," says Peeta.
“她说,‘她’是生存者,就是她,她。”皮塔说。
"What use is that? How many times have you seen someone wrestle someone to death?" says Peeta in disgust.
“这有什么用?你见过几次是摔跤把别人摔死的?”皮塔厌烦地说。
That pulls me up short. Did his mother really say that about me? Did she rate me over her son? I see the pain in Peeta's eyes and know he isn't lying.
我一时无话可说。他妈妈真的这么说我?她觉得我比她儿子强?我看到皮塔痛苦的眼神,知道他没有撒谎。
Suddenly I'm behind the bakery and I can feel the chill of the rain running down my back, the hollowness in my belly. I sound eleven years old when I speak. "But only because someone helped me."
突然间,面包房的一幕又浮现在我的脑海。雨水打湿了我的脊背,腹中饥饿难耐。“我活着,是因为有人救了我。”我说道,说话的口气好像又回到了十一岁那年。
"No more than you," I say.
“他们给我的赞助肯定没给你的多。”我说。
After about a minute of this, Haymitch says, "Well, then. Well, well, well. Katniss, there's no guarantee there'll be bows and arrows in the arena, but during your private session with the Gamemakers, show them what you can do. Until then, stay clear of archery. Are you any good at trapping?"
过了大约一分钟,黑密斯说:“那么,好吧,好吧,好吧,凯特尼斯,竞技场也不能保证会有弓箭,在竞赛组织者进行私下训练时,你可以展示你的技能,在那之前,别再说你射箭的事了,你诱捕猎物方面怎么样?
Peeta rolls his eyes at Haymitch. "She has no idea. The effect she can have." He runs his fingernail along the wood grain in the table, refusing to look at me.
皮塔转而看着黑密斯。“她不知道自己有多厉害。”他的手划着桌子上的木纹,不愿抬眼看我。
Peeta's eyes flicker down to the roll in my hands, and I know he remembers that day, too. But he just shrugs. "People will help you in the arena. They'll be tripping over each other to sponsor you."
皮塔的目光落在我的蛋卷上,我心里明白他也想起了那一天。他仅耸了耸肩。“在竞技场也会有人帮你的。大家会争着给你赞助。
I glower at the roll, sure he meant to insult me.
我怒气冲冲地盯着眼前的蛋卷,确定他是在侮辱我。
What on earth does he mean? People help me? When we were dying of starvation, no one helped me! No one except Peeta. Once I had something to barter with, things changed. I'm a tough trader. Or am I? What effect do I have? That I'm weak and needy? Is he suggesting that I got good deals because people pitied me? I try to think if this is true. Perhaps some of the merchants were a little generous in their trades, but I always attributed that to their long-standing relationship with my father. Besides, my game is first-class. No one pitied me!
他到底是什么意思啊?有人帮我?我们当年快饿死的时候就没人帮我!没人,除了皮塔。直到我手里有了可交换的物品,情况才发生改变。我做交易是个老手。是这样吗?我会有什么影响?因为我孱弱,总需要人帮助?他是说大家可怜我,才在交换货物的时候对我慷慨相助?我心里琢磨者是不是这么回事。也许有些商人做交易的时候比较大方,我把这一切归结到他们和爸爸常年的交情。再说,我的猎物也相当棒啊。并没人可怜我!
"That may be significant in terms of food," says Haymitch. "And, Peeta, she's right, never underestimate strength in the arena. Very often, physical power tilts the advantage to a player. In the Training Center, they will have weights, but don't reveal how much you can lift in front of the other tributes. The plan's the same for both of you. You go to group training. Spend the time trying to learn something you don't know. Throw a spear. Swing a mace. Learn to tie a decent knot. Save showing what you're best at until your private sessions. Are we clear?" says Haymitch.
“这对你找到食物很有帮助,”黑密斯说,“皮塔,她说的是对的,永远不要低估自己竞技能力。在很多情况下,有力气对一个选手很有利。在训练中心,有举重训练,别再其他‘贡品’面前显出来你有多大力气。这方面,你们俩一样。集体训练时,要花时间学会你们不会的东西,像抛矛啊、甩钉头啊。要学会打绳结。到个人训练时再展示你的真本领。明白了吗?”黑密斯说道。
I bite my lip and stalk back to my room, making sure Peeta can hear the door slam. I sit on the bed, hating Haymitch, hating Peeta, hating myself for mentioning that day long ago in the rain.
我咬着下嘴唇,大步走回房间,坐在床上。我恨黑密斯,恨皮塔,恨我自己干嘛又提起以前在雨里的那一天。
"I know a few basic snares," I mutter.
“我只会下几个简单的套。”我咕哝着。
Peeta and I nod.
皮塔和我点点头。
"One last thing. In public, I want you by each other's side every minute," says Haymitch. We both start to object, but Haymitch slams his hand on the table. "Every minute! It's not open for discussion! You agreed to do as I said! You will be together, you will appear amiable to each other. Now get out. Meet Effie at the elevator at ten for training."
“还有最后一件事。在公共场合,你们俩要时时刻刻不离左右。”黑密斯说。我们俩立刻表示反对,可黑密斯把手在桌子上一拍,说:“时时刻刻!这事不需要讨论!你们照我说的做!要待在一起,彼此要友好。现在,去吧。十点钟在电梯口和艾菲碰面,准备训练。
I hear Peeta's voice in my head. She has no idea. The effect she can have. Obviously meant to demean me. Right? But a tiny part of me wonders if this was a compliment. That he meant I was appealing in some way. It's weird, how much he's noticed me. Like the attention he's paid to my hunting. And apparently, I have not been as oblivious to him as I imagined, either. The flour. The wrestling. I have kept track of the boy with the bread.
皮塔的话仍然萦绕在我耳边:“她不知道自己有多厉害。”这明显是在挖苦我,不是吗?可我又隐隐约约觉得,他是在恭维我。他是说我在某些方面有吸引力。他对我这么熟悉,真奇怪。如同他熟悉我打猎的事。显然,对他的事,我也没有想象中的那么健忘,面粉、摔跤,我也一直关注着这个给我面包的男孩。
It's such a joke! Peeta and I going along pretending to be friends! Talking up each other's strengths, insisting the other take credit for their abilities. Because, in fact, at some point, we're going to have to knock it off and accept we're bitter adversaries. Which I'd be prepared to do right now if it wasn't for Haymitch's stupid instruction that we stick together in training. It's my own fault, I guess, for telling him he didn't have to coach us separately. But that didn't mean I wanted to do everything with Peeta. Who, by the way, clearly doesn't want to be partnering up with me, either.
真是太可笑了!皮塔假装成我的朋友!大谈我有什么本事,坚持让我相信自己的能力。实际上,到一定时候,我们都得抛弃这一切,承认我们是彼此强有力的对手。要不是黑密斯的建议,愚蠢地要我们两个一起训练,我现在就接受这个事实。也许,是我自己的错,我不该说我们俩无需分开训练之类的话,可这不等于我做任何事都要和皮塔在一起。毕竟,也没人公开说不愿意和我搭成一组。
It's almost ten. I clean my teeth and smooth back my hair again. Anger temporarily blocked out my nervousness about meeting the other tributes, but now I can feel my anxiety rising again. By the time I meet Effie and Peeta at the elevator, I catch myself biting my nails. I stop at once.
十点钟快到了。我刷刷牙,梳理一下头发。刚才由于气愤,暂时忘却了与其他“贡品”见面的紧张,可现在忧虑不安又悄悄爬上我的心头。在电梯口和皮塔、艾菲碰头时,我无意中发现自己又在啃指甲,但我马上停止了这个动作。
As soon as we join the circle, the head trainer, a tall, athletic woman named Atala steps up and begins to explain the training schedule. Experts in each skill will remain at their stations. We will be free to travel from area to area as we choose, per our mentor's instructions. Some of the stations teach survival skills, others fighting techniques. We are forbidden to engage in any combative exercise with another tribute. There are assistants on hand if we want to practice with a partner.
我们也和大家围成一圈,领头的教练,一个叫阿塔拉的高大健壮的女人,走上前来,给我们解释训练课程安排。单项技能教练在他们各自的训练站点等候。我们根据本区导师的指令,可自行选择训练站点。一些站点教授生存技能,其他站点教授搏击技巧。我们严禁与其他选手进行搏杀练习。如果需要,随时可以和现场助手进行练习。
The actual training rooms are below ground level of our building. With these elevators, the ride is less than a minute. The doors open into an enormous gymnasium filled with various weapons and obstacle courses. Although it's not yet ten, we're the last ones to arrive. The other tributes are gathered in a tense circle. They each have a cloth square with their district number on it pinned to their shirts. While someone pins the number 12 on my back, I do a quick assessment. Peeta and I are the only two dressed alike.
所谓的训练场,就是这座建筑地下的一个体育馆,电梯到那只用了不到一分钟。大门正对着一个巨大的体育馆,里面有各种武器和敷设障碍的行走路线。尽管还不到十点,我们已经是最后一拨到的。其他“贡品”紧紧围成一圈。他们的衬衫上别着一块方形号码布,上面写着本区的序号。趁着有人给我别12号码的时候,我迅速扫了一下四周,只有我和皮塔的装束相似。
The exceptions are the kids from the wealthier districts, the volunteers, the ones who have been fed and trained throughout their lives for this moment. The tributes from 1, 2, and 4 traditionally have this look about them. It's technically against the rules to train tributes before they reach the Capitol but it happens every year. In District 12, we call them the Career Tributes, or just the Careers. And like as not, the winner will be one of them.
唯一的例外是那些来自富裕辖区的选手,那些志愿者,他们自出生起,无论饮食还是训练都是为这一刻准备的。往往来自一区、二区、三区的选手都是如此。照理说,来凯匹特之前就训练“贡品”是违反比赛规则的,可这事年年都会发生。在十二区,我们管他们叫作“职业贡品”,或“职业选手”。不管你喜欢与否,赢家总是他们中的一个。
When Atala begins to read down the list of the skill stations, my eyes can't help flitting around to the other tributes. It's the first time we've been assembled, on level ground, in simple clothes. My heart sinks. Almost all of the boys and at least half of the girls are bigger than I am, even though many of the tributes have never been fed properly. You can see it in their bones, their skin, the hollow look in their eyes. I may be smaller naturally, but overall my family's resourcefulness has given me an edge in that area. I stand straight, and while I'm thin, I'm strong. The meat and plants from the woods combined with the exertion it took to get them have given me a healthier body than most of those I see around me.
阿塔拉开始念训练站点的名单,我环视周围的选手。各区选手身还是第一次穿着普通的衣服在地面集合。看到他们,我心情倍感沉重,虽然有的选手也吃不饱肚子——这一点可以从他们突出的骨架、粗糙的皮肤和深陷的眼窝看得出来——可几乎所有的男孩和一半的女孩都比我高大。可转念一想,虽然我身材矮小,可家人给我的灵活头脑也是我的优势,再说,虽然我个头小,可常年以丛林里野生动植物为食,加之觅食过程中的劳碌奔波,使我的身板比我周围多数人都健壮结实。
"Suppose we tie some knots," I say.
“我觉得咱们还是学学打绳结吧。”我说。
The slight advantage I held coming into the Training Center, my fiery entrance last night, seems to vanish in the presence of my competition. The other tributes were jealous of us, but not because we were amazing, because our stylists were. Now I see nothing but contempt in the glances of the Career Tributes. Each must have fifty to a hundred pounds on me. They project arrogance and brutality. When Atala releases us, they head straight for the deadliest-looking weapons in the gym and handle them with ease.
昨天在火光中的成功出场所获得的微弱优势,今天面对强劲的竞争对手时,似乎已荡然无存。其他“贡品”嫉妒我们不是因为我们出色,而是因为我们的设计师很棒。此时,在“职业贡品”眼中透出的只有蔑视和不屑,他们每个人好像都比我重五十到一百磅,看上去既傲慢又野蛮。阿塔拉宣布我们解散后,他们就直奔配备致命武器的训练场,使用起这些武器也驾轻就熟。
I'm thinking that it's lucky I'm a fast runner when Peeta nudges my arm and I jump. He is still beside me, per Haymitch's instructions. His expression is sober. "Where would you like to start?"
我想幸亏自己跑得快,还算幸运。这时皮塔用胳膊肘碰了我一下,把我吓了一跳。他对黑密斯惟命是从,还呆在我身边。他表情严肃,“你想从哪开始?
I look around at the Career Tributes who are showing off, clearly trying to intimidate the field. Then at the others, the underfed, the incompetent, shakily having their first lessons with a knife or an ax.
我看看那四周,“职业贡品”耀武扬威,跃跃欲试;那些吃不饱饭,显然逊色一筹的人,正战战兢兢地准备从刀子、斧头开始。
"Right you are," says Peeta. We cross to an empty station where the trainer seems pleased to have students. You get the feeling that the knot-tying class is not the Hunger Games hot spot. When he realizes I know something about snares, he shows us a simple, excellent trap that will leave a human competitor dangling by a leg from a tree. We concentrate on this one skill for an hour until both of us have mastered it. Then we move on to camouflage. Peeta genuinely seems to enjoy this station, swirling a combination of mud and clay and berry juices around on his pale skin, weaving disguises from vines and leaves. The trainer who runs the camouflage station is full of enthusiasm at his work.
“好的。”皮塔说。我们穿过训练场,来到一个无人的站点,教练看到有学生来很高兴,这个站点给人的感觉是结绳并非猎杀游戏的热门课程。当教练得知我对设套略知一二时,就教会我一种简单的下套方法,可以把人的一条腿从树上吊起来。我们认真地学习了一小时,才掌握了这项技能。之后我们学习伪装。皮塔好像对这项技能非常感兴趣,他把泥巴、粘土和捣烂的浆果混合而成的糊糊抹在他煞白的皮肤上,又用枝条和树叶编制伪装帽。教练对他的工作也充满热情。
"The cakes?" I ask. I've been preoccupied with watching the boy from District 2 send a spear through a dummy's heart from fifteen yards. "What cakes?"
“蛋糕?”我正专注的观看一名二区的选手从十五码外用长矛穿透了假人的心脏。“什么蛋糕?
"I do the cakes," he admits to me.
“我是做蛋糕的。”他十分坦白地对我说道。
I look more critically at the design on Peeta's arm. The alternating pattern of light and dark suggests sunlight falling through the leaves in the woods. I wonder how he knows this, since I doubt he's ever been beyond the fence. Has he been able to pick this up from just that scraggly old apple tree in his backyard? Somehow the whole thing -- his skill, those inaccessible cakes, the praise of the camouflage expert -- annoys me.
我仔细观看皮塔胳膊上的伪装图案,那明暗相间的条纹像是阳光透过树叶照射的影子,我纳闷他怎么懂得这些,因为我一直怀疑他是否出过十二区。他是从他们家后院那棵老苹果树得到的灵感吗?所有这些事情——他的技能、那些吃不着的蛋糕、还有教练对他迷彩的表扬——都让我恼火。
"It's lovely. If only you could frost someone to death," I say.
“真漂亮。可惜,你要能用糖霜把人冻死就好啦。”我说。
He means the ones they display in the windows. Fancy cakes with flowers and pretty things painted in frosting. They're for birthdays and New Year's Day. When we're in the square, Prim always drags me over to admire them, although we'd never be able to afford one. There's little enough beauty in District 12, though, so I can hardly deny her this.
他是说在橱窗展出的那种蛋糕。那种有花朵和糖霜小装饰的漂亮蛋糕。那是过生日或新年时才吃的。我们在十二区商业广场溜达时,波丽姆经常拉着我去看那种蛋糕,可我们从来都买不起。在十二区没什么漂亮的东西,所以对她的要求我也不忍拒绝。
"At home. The iced ones, for the bakery," he says.
“在家,做那种冰镇的蛋糕,给面包房做。”他说。
The Gamemakers appeared early on the first day. Twenty or so men and women dressed in deep purple robes. They sit in the elevated stands that surround the gymnasium, sometimes wandering about to watch us, jotting down notes, other times eating at the endless banquet that has been set for them, ignoring the lot of us. But they do seem to be keeping their eye on the District 12 tributes. Several times I've looked up to find one fixated on me. They consult with the trainers during our meals as well. We see them all gathered together when we come back.
竞赛组织者第一天来得很早。他们共二十来个人,既有男士也有女士,身穿深紫色长袍。他们坐在训练场周围的观众席上,有时会来到我们中间走走看看,做些简短记录,其他时候就大嚼为他们特别准备的食物,不再理睬我们。可他们好像对十二区的选手特别关注。有几次我抬眼望去,发现有人正盯着我看。就餐时间,他们也会向教练询问情况,我们训练结束时,他们就会聚拢在一起。
"Don't be so superior. You can never tell what you'll find in the arena. Say it's actually a gigantic cake --" begins Peeta.
“别总是那么高高在上好不好,谁能说准在竞技场会找到什么。比如说,一只巨大的蛋糕——”皮塔说。
"Say we move on," I break in.
“比如说,咱们可以走了。”我打断了他。
So the next three days pass with Peeta and me going quietly from station to station. We do pick up some valuable skills, from starting fires, to knife throwing, to making shelter. Despite Haymitch's order to appear mediocre, Peeta excels in hand-to-hand combat, and I sweep the edible plants test without blinking an eye. We steer clear of archery and weightlifting though, wanting to save those for our private sessions.
之后的三天,我和皮塔悄无声息地从一个站点转到另一个站点,我们的确学会了许多宝贵的技能,例如:取火、抛刀子、搭雨棚。尽管黑密斯让我们不要显山露水,可皮塔在徒手搏击方面表现出色,我吃野生植物时眼都不眨一下。我们小心地绕开了射箭和举重的事,想把它留到单独训练时再说。
It's not easy to find a topic. Talking of home is painful. Talking of the present unbearable. One day, Peeta empties our breadbasket and points out how they have been careful to include types from the districts along with the refined bread of the Capitol. The fish-shaped loaf tinted green with seaweed from District 4. The crescent moon roll dotted with seeds from District 11. Somehow, although it's made from the same stuff, it looks a lot more appetizing than the ugly drop biscuits that are the standard fare at home.
找到话题可不容易。谈论家人令人痛苦,谈论现在也让人难以忍受。有一天,皮塔把盛早餐的小筐倒空,给我讲他家的面包房是怎样精心制作各种面包的,既有用各区风味面包,也有凯匹特式的精美面包。鱼形面包用四区的海藻染成绿色,月牙形蛋卷点缀着产自十一区的果仁,尽管都用同样的食料制成,看上去却比本区烤制的小饼干美味得多。
Breakfast and dinner are served on our floor, but at lunch the twenty-four of us eat in a dining room off the gymnasium. Food is arranged on carts around the room and you serve yourself. The Career Tributes tend to gather rowdily around one table, as if to prove their superiority, that they have no fear of one another and consider the rest of us beneath notice. Most of the other tributes sit alone, like lost sheep. No one says a word to us. Peeta and I eat together, and since Haymitch keeps dogging us about it, try to keep up a friendly conversation during the meals.
各区选手在所住楼层吃早饭和晚饭,但中饭安排在训练场外的餐厅吃。食物放在餐车上,由大家自取。那些职业选手喜欢围坐在同一张桌子旁,说话总是很大声,好像要炫耀自己的实力,表示他们并不畏惧彼此,而且根本没把我们放在眼里。其他的选手分散坐在一旁,好像迷途的羔羊。没人给他们搭一句话。皮塔和我坐在一起,因为黑密斯总是会尾随监视我们,所以吃饭时我们也尽量友好地聊聊天。
We both give a somewhat convincing laugh and ignore the stares from around the room.
说着,我们两个都开心地笑了起来,也不理睬周围盯着我们的目光。
"Did I ever tell you about the time I was chased by a bear?" I ask.
“我给你说过我被熊追的事吗?”我问。
"All right, I'll keep smiling pleasantly and you talk," says Peeta. It's wearing us both out, Haymitch's direction to be friendly. Because ever since I slammed my door, there's been a chill in the air between us. But we have our orders.
“好吧,现在我一直笑着,你说点什么。”皮塔说。黑密斯让我们彼此友好,真让我们疲于应付。自从那天我气愤地把门摔上之后,我和皮塔之间就出现了隐隐的隔阂,可此时我们也有令必遵啊!
"No, but it sounds fascinating," says Peeta.
“没有,可这听上去挺有趣的。”皮塔说。
On the second day, while we're taking a shot at spear throwing, he whispers to me. "I think we have a shadow."
第二天,我正拿矛瞄准,皮塔在我耳边轻声说:“我想咱们有个影子。
"You certainly know a lot," I say.
“你懂得还真不少。”我说。
"Only about bread," he says. "Okay, now laugh as if I've said something funny."
“只不过面包而已。”他说,“好吧,现在笑一笑,就好像咱们说了些好笑的事。
I try and animate my face as I recall the event, a true story, in which I'd foolishly challenged a black bear over the rights to a beehive. Peeta laughs and asks questions right on cue. He's much better at this than I am.
于是我讲了起来,尽力让自己表情丰富。这是件真事,当时我很愚蠢,要和一头熊争一个马蜂窝――,说到这,皮塔大笑着,并适时地提出问题。他还真能装,在这方面比我强得多。
"And there you have it," says Peeta, scooping the breads back in the basket.
“喏,这就是大家吃到的面包。”皮塔说着,把面包又都放回到筐里。
I throw my spear, which I'm not too bad at actually, if I don't have to throw too far, and see the little girl from District 11 standing back a bit, watching us. She's the twelve-year-old, the one who reminded me so of Prim in stature. Up close she looks about ten. She has bright, dark eyes and satiny brown skin and stands tilted up on her toes with her arms slightly extended to her sides, as if ready to take wing at the slightest sound. It's impossible not to think of a bird.
我把手中的矛抛了出去,说实话,要是不需抛得太远,我抛矛的功夫还不错。这时我看到十一区的女孩正在我们身后不远的地方看着我们。她就是那个十二岁的女孩,离近看也只有十来岁,她和波丽姆相似的身高让我想起自己的妹妹。她看上去聪明伶俐,长着一双黑色的大眼睛和光滑的棕色皮肤。她正踮起脚尖站着,两臂在身体两侧微微张开,好像稍微有点动静就要飞走,她的样子让人不由地联想到一只展翅的鸟儿。
I bite my lip. Rue is a small yellow flower that grows in the Meadow. Rue. Primrose. Neither of them could tip the scale at seventy pounds soaking wet.
我咬住嘴唇,“露”是一种生长在草甸上的花朵。(Rue,英文,意为芸香――译者注)露露,波丽姆,即使浑身湿透,她俩的体重都不会超过七十磅。
I pick up another spear while Peeta throws. "I think her name's Rue," he says softly.
皮塔投掷时,我又拿起另一只矛。“我想她的名字叫露露”皮塔轻声说。
Now that I know she's there, it's hard to ignore the child. She slips up and joins us at different stations. Like me, she's clever with plants, climbs swiftly, and has good aim. She can hit the target every time with a slingshot. But what is a slingshot against a 220-pound male with a sword?
既然看到了她,就很难不去注意她。我们在不同的训练场,她总是想影子似的跟在我们后面。她和我一样,对植物很在行,爬得很快,瞄得很准。她用弹弓每次都能击中目标。可弹弓怎么能对付二百二十磅重、手持利刃的男选手?
"What can we do about it?" I ask him, more harshly than I intended.
“咱们怎么办?”我问他,说话的口气很粗重。
"Nothing to do," he says back. "Just making conversation."
“没办法。”他说,“接着说话吧。
Back on the District 12 floor, Haymitch and Effie grill us throughout breakfast and dinner about every moment of the day. What we did, who watched us, how the other tributes size up. Cinna and Portia aren't around, so there's no one to add any sanity to the meals. Not that Haymitch and Effie are fighting anymore. Instead they seem to be of one mind, determined to whip us into shape. Full of endless directions about what we should do and not do in training. Peeta is more patient, but I become fed up and surly.
早餐和晚餐时,艾菲和黑密斯对当天发生的每件事都细细盘问。我们干了什么,谁在观看我们,其他“贡品”情况怎样。西纳和波西娅不在,所以再也没人为这餐桌上的讨论注入理性的判断。黑密斯和艾菲也不再争吵,他们两个似乎拧成一股绳,定要把我们训出个样来,没完没了地下达各种指令,让我们要做这,不要做那。皮塔还算有耐心,可我已厌烦了,经常板着面孔。
I make a sound that is somewhere between a snort and a laugh. Then catch myself. It's messing with my mind too much, trying to keep straight when we're supposedly friends and when we're not. At least when we get into the arena, I'll know where we stand. "Don't. Don't let's pretend when there's no one around."
我扑哧笑了出来,可又马上打住。我脑子里很乱,不知我们何时该装作朋友,何时又不需要。好在,在训练场,我们都还清楚自己的站位。“别,别,没人在的时候就别装了。
When we finally escape to bed on the second night, Peeta mumbles, "Someone ought to get Haymitch a drink."
第二天晚上我们好容易才脱身,回到卧室,皮塔喃喃低语:“应该有人把黑密斯灌醉。
"All right, Katniss," he says tiredly. After that, we only talk in front of people.
“好吧,凯特尼斯。”他面带疲倦地说。从那以后,我们只有在别人面前时才说话。
On the third day of training, they start to call us out of lunch for our private sessions with the Gamemakers. District by district, first the boy, then the girl tribute. As usual, District 12 is slated to go last. We linger in the dining room, unsure where else to go. No one comes back once they have left. As the room empties, the pressure to appear friendly lightens. By the time they call Rue, we are left alone. We sit in silence until they summon Peeta. He rises.
训练进行到第三天,我们在吃中饭时被叫出来,到大赛组织者那里进行的单个测试。测试要一个区一个区地进行,先是男孩,后是女孩。像往常一样,十二区排在最后。我们也无处可去,就在餐厅溜达。测试完的选手离开后就没再回来。屋子里的人越来越少,我假装友好的压力也就越来越小。最后露露被叫走后,就剩下我们俩。我坐在那,默不做声,后来有人来叫皮塔。他站起身来。
"Remember what Haymitch said about being sure to throw the weights." The words come out of my mouth without permission.
“记住黑密斯的话,别忘了说自己能投重物。”这话没获得皮塔的同意就从我嘴里冒了出来。
"Thanks. I will," he says. "You… shoot straight."
“谢谢,我会的。”他说,“你…会射箭。
I nod. I don't know why I said anything at all. Although if I'm going to lose, I'd rather Peeta win than the others. Better for our district, for my mother and Prim.
我点点头,不明白自己干嘛说这些。也许,就算我输了,我也希望皮塔能赢吧!这对我们区有好处,对妈妈和波丽姆也有好处。
After about fifteen minutes, they call my name. I smooth my hair, set my shoulders back, and walk into the gymnasium. Instantly, I know I'm in trouble. They've been here too long, the Gamemakers. Sat through twenty-three other demonstrations. Had too much wine, most of them. Want more than anything to go home.
大约过了十五分钟,有人叫我的名字。我整整头发,伸直腰板,走进体育馆。刚一进去,就觉得不妙。大赛组织者已经测试了二十三个区的选手,他们在这里耗时过长,多数人又喝了酒,此时他们已心情涣散,归家心切了。
There's nothing I can do but continue with the plan. I walk to the archery station. Oh, the weapons! I've been itching to get my hands on them for days! Bows made of wood and plastic and metal and materials I can't even name. Arrows with feathers cut in flawless uniform lines. I choose a bow, string it, and sling the matching quiver of arrows over my shoulder. There's a shooting range, but it's much too limited. Standard bull's-eyes and human silhouettes. I walk to the center of the gymnasium and pick my first target. The dummy used for knife practice. Even as I pull back on the bow I know something is wrong. The string's tighter than the one I use at home. The arrow's more rigid. I miss the dummy by a couple of inches and lose what little attention I had been commanding. For a moment, I'm humiliated, then I head back to the bull's-eye. I shoot again and again until I get the feel of these new weapons.
对此,我束手无策,只能硬着头皮按原计划进行。我走到摆放弓箭的站点。噢,弓箭!我的手已经痒了好几天了。各种弓箭用木头、塑料、金属,还有一些我叫不上名字的材料制成。箭的尾羽一水儿切割得齐刷刷的。我挑了把弓箭,将配套的箭袋搭在肩上。射箭的距离已经预设好,但距离太近了。靶子是标准的十环人像靶。于是我走到训练场中心,瞄准我的第一个目标――用来练习刀法的假人。我拉弓的时候,发现不太对劲,弓弦比我在家所用的要紧,箭也更硬,结果我差几英寸没有射中假人。观众席上本来没几个注意我,这时大家更是心不在焉了。一时间,我觉得很丢脸。我回到人像靶的射箭位置,一连射了很多次,直到我掌握了使用新武器的要领。
It's excellent shooting. I turn to the Gamemakers. A few are nodding approval, but the majority of them are fixated on a roast pig that has just arrived at their banquet table.
我的箭射得很棒,接着我转向大赛组织者,一些人赞赏地点着头,但其他人则在吃刚端上来的烤猪。
Back in the center of the gymnasium, I take my initial position and skewer the dummy right through the heart. Then I sever the rope that holds the sandbag for boxing, and the bag splits open as it slams to the ground. Without pausing, I shoulder-roll forward, come up on one knee, and send an arrow into one of the hanging lights high above the gymnasium floor. A shower of sparks bursts from the fixture.
我又回到训练场中心原来的位置,拉满弓,一箭射穿了假人的心脏,紧接着,又射中了悬挂拳击沙袋的绳子,沙袋撞击地面,啪地一下裂开了。我没停顿,在地上一滚,接着单腿跪地,又是一箭,射中了高挂在训练场上方的聚光灯,打得聚光灯火花四溅。
Suddenly I am furious, that with my life on the line, they don't even have the decency to pay attention to me. That I'm being upstaged by a dead pig. My heart starts to pound, I can feel my face burning. Without thinking, I pull an arrow from my quiver and send it straight at the Gamemakers' table. I hear shouts of alarm as people stumble back. The arrow skewers the apple in the pig's mouth and pins it to the wall behind it. Everyone stares at me in disbelief.
我猛然间怒火中烧。现在我命悬一线,可这些人却对我不理不睬,我甚至比不上一头死猪。我心砰砰地跳着,连涨得通红。我不假思索,从箭袋中抽出一只箭,直射向大赛组织者所坐的桌子。接着听到声声惊叫,那些人赶紧跌跌撞撞地往后退。箭正好射中烤猪嘴里的苹果,一下子连箭带苹果子钉在了后面的墙上。每个人都用困惑不解的眼光看着我。
"Thank you for your consideration," I say. Then I give a slight bow and walk straight toward the exit without being dismissed.
“谢谢观看。”我说,然后微鞠了一躬,没等他们宣布结束,就径直朝出口走去。