Oh, what does it matter? It's not like I was going to win the Games anyway. Who cares what they do to me? What really scares me is what they might do to my mother and Prim, how my family might suffer now because of my impulsiveness. Will they take their few belongings, or send my mother to prison and Prim to the community home, or kill them? They wouldn't kill them, would they? Why not? What do they care?
咳,说到低,这有什么关系呢?反正我赢的可能性也不大。他们怎么对我又有谁在乎?真正让我感到恐惧的是他们会对妈妈和波丽姆做出什么,家人因为我的冲动会遭受多大的痛苦呢?他们会拿走她们可怜的财产,而后把妈妈投入监狱,把波丽姆送到教养院去?他们不会杀了她们,对吧?为什么不?他们又在乎什么?
As I stride toward the elevator, I fling my bow to one side and my quiver to the other. I brush past the gaping Avoxes who guard the elevators and hit the number twelve button with my fist. The doors slide together and I zip upward. I actually make it back to my floor before the tears start running down my cheeks. I can hear the others calling me from the sitting room, but I fly down the hall into my room, bolt the door, and fling myself onto my bed. Then I really begin to sob.
我大跨步走向电梯,边走边把弓箭和箭袋斜挎在肩的两侧,我推开守卫在电梯旁的阿瓦克丝,用拳头砸在十二层按钮上,电梯门慢慢合拢,我随电梯迅速上升。我要在泪水夺眶而出之前,赶快回到自己房间。我听到有人在会客室喊我,我也没应声,穿过大厅,冲回房间,销上门,扑到床上,泪水扑簌簌地流了下来。
Now I've done it! Now I've ruined everything! If I'd stood even a ghost of a chance, it vanished when I sent that arrow flying at the Gamemakers. What will they do to me now? Arrest me? Execute me? Cut my tongue and turn me into an Avox so I can wait on the future tributes of Panem? What was I thinking, shooting at the Gamemakers? Of course, I wasn't, I was shooting at that apple because I was so angry at being ignored. I wasn't trying to kill one of them. If I were, they'd be dead!
事已经发生了,我把一切都毁了!如果说,我曾有机会的话,它也被我射向大赛组织者的那只箭给打跑了。现在他们会怎样处置我?逮捕?处死?割了舌头,让我变成阿瓦克丝,以后伺候帕纳姆国其他“贡品”?我怎么会把箭射向他们,我在想什么呢?当然,我并不想射他们,而是要射苹果,他们对我不予理睬,让我十分气愤。我并不是要杀死他们,如果真想,他们早就一命呜呼了。
Before that though, they'll give me a score so low, no one in their right mind would sponsor me. That's what will happen tonight. Since the training isn't open to viewers, the Gamemakers announce a score for each player. It gives the audience a starting place for the betting that will continue throughout the Games. The number, which is between one and twelve, one being irredeemably bad and twelve being unattainably high, signifies the promise of the tribute. The mark is not a guarantee of which person will win. It's only an indication of the potential a tribute showed in training. Often, because of the variables in the actual arena, high-scoring tributes go down almost immediately. And a few years ago, the boy who won the Games only received a three. Still, the scores can help or hurt an individual tribute in terms of sponsorship. I had been hoping my shooting skills might get me a six or a seven, even if I'm not particularly powerful. Now I'm sure I'll have the lowest score of the twenty-four. If no one sponsors me, my odds of staying alive decrease to almost zero.
可是在我还没进竞技场之前,大赛组织者准定给我打很低的分数,成绩今晚就公布,这样所有头脑健全的人都不会资助我。今天的训练是不公开的,在训练结束后,大赛组织者将宣布每个选手成绩,观众会以此为起点在随后的整个比赛中下注。他们所给出的成绩从一分到十二分不等,一分是无可挽回的低分,十二分是高分,表明选手具有相当潜力。然而,成绩本身并不表明谁在比赛中能赢,只表明选手在训练中的潜力。在竞技场中选手表现差距很大,高分选手往往游戏一开始成绩就急转直下。几年前,一个获胜的选手在首次评比中只得了三分。当然,分数的高低也会在拉赞助方面对选手造成很大影响。虽然我的射箭技术差强人意,可开始我还指望能得到六、七分,现在我的成绩准是二十四个人中最低的。如果在比赛中没人赞助我,那我的生存几率几乎为零。
At first, I expect guards to come for me. But as time passes, it seems less likely. I calm down. They still need a girl tribute from District 12, don't they? If the Gamemakers want to punish me, they can do it publicly. Wait until I'm in the arena and sic starving wild animals on me. You can bet they'll make sure I don't have a bow and arrow to defend myself.
开始,我以为卫兵会来这把我带走,可时间一分一秒过去,他们好像不会来了。我镇静了下来,他们还是需要十二区的女“贡品”,不是吗?如果大赛组织者者要惩罚我,他们可以堂而皇之,在竞技场放出饥饿的动物来咬我。到那时,他们肯定不会给我弓箭,来让我自卫。
I should have stayed and apologized. Or laughed, like it was a big joke. Then maybe I would have found some leniency. But instead I stalked out of the place in the most disrespectful manner possible.
我本应该留在训练场,表示道歉。或笑一笑,表示这不过是个玩笑,也许他们还会对我高抬贵手。相反,我却傲不为礼,昂首阔步地走出了体育馆。
Haymitch and Effie are knocking on my door. I shout for them to go away and eventually they do. It takes at least an hour for me to cry myself out. Then I just lie curled up on the bed, stroking the silken sheets, watching the sun set over the artificial candy Capitol.
黑密斯和艾菲正在敲门,我大喊着让他们走开,他们终于走了。我哭了至少一个小时,然后蜷缩在床上,抚弄着丝质床单,看着太阳在凯匹特――这个糖做的童话王国缓缓落下。
The adults begin some chitchat about the weather forecast, and I let my eyes meet Peeta's. He raises his eyebrows. A question. What happened? I just give my head a small shake. Then, as they're serving the main course, I hear Haymitch say, "Okay, enough small talk, just how bad were you today?"
大人们在闲聊着天气预报,我的目光与皮塔相遇,他抬了抬眉毛,意思是,‘怎么了?’我只微微摇了摇头。侍者端上了主菜,这时黑密斯说:“好吧,聊得差不多了,你们今天还不太糟吧?
Everyone's waiting at the table, even Cinna and Portia. I wish the stylists hadn't shown up because for some reason, I don't like the idea of disappointing them. It's as if I've thrown away all the good work they did on the opening ceremonies without a thought. I avoid looking at anyone as I take tiny spoonfuls of fish soup. The saltiness reminds me of my tears.
大家都在餐桌旁等候,包括西纳和波西娅。不知怎的,我真希望他们没来,不想让他们失望。他们在开幕式上好容易取得的成功,好像我想都不想就给毁了。吃饭时我用勺子小口喝着鱼汤,不敢抬眼看任何人。鱼汤咸咸的,感觉好像是泪水。
Peeta jumps in. "I don't know that it mattered. By the time I showed up, no one even bothered to look at me. They were singing some kind of drinking song, I think. So, I threw around some heavy objects until they told me I could go."
皮塔抢先一步,说:“我不知道今天表现得怎么样,我站在他们面前时,他们连看都练得看我一眼,好像在唱什么祝酒歌,我投了几个重物,之后他们就让我走了。
When Effie taps on the door to call me to dinner, I decide I may as well go. The scores will be televised tonight. It's not like I can hide what happened forever. I go to the bathroom and wash my face, but it's still red and splotchy.
艾菲敲门叫我去吃饭,我决定还是去吧。成绩会在今晚的电视上公布,这些事我想瞒也瞒不住。我走进浴室,洗了把脸,可脸还是红红的,挂着泪痕。
"Without being dismissed?" gasps Effie.
“没等宣布结束?”艾菲急促地问。
"And what did they say?" says Cinna carefully.
“他们怎么说?”西纳小心翼翼地说。
That makes me feel a bit better. It's not like Peeta attacked the Gamemakers, but at least he was provoked, too.
听到这个,我感觉略好些,皮塔虽然没有攻击大赛组织者,但至少他也很愤怒。
"Doubt it. Be a pain to replace you at this stage," says Haymitch.
“我怀疑不会,这个阶段再换人是很棘手的。”黑密斯说。
"And you, sweetheart?" says Haymitch.
“你呢,亲爱的?”黑密斯说。
Everyone stops eating. "You what?" The horror in Effie's voice confirms my worse suspicions.
大家都停止吃饭。“你什么?”艾菲声音中透出的恐惧证实了我的怀疑。
"Do you think they'll arrest me?" I ask.
“你觉得他们会逮捕我吗?”我问。
"I shot an arrow at them. Not exactly at them. In their direction. It's like Peeta said, I was shooting and they were ignoring me and I just… I just lost my head, so I shot an apple out of their stupid roast pig's mouth!" I say defiantly.
“我朝他们放了一箭,确切地说,不是朝他们,是朝他们那个方向,就像皮塔说的,他们对我不加理睬,所以我就…我就不冷静,朝愚蠢的烤猪嘴里的苹果射了一箭!”我为自己辩护道。
Somehow Haymitch calling me sweetheart ticks me off enough that I'm at least able to speak. "I shot an arrow at the Gamemakers."
黑密斯叫我‘亲爱的’,让我颇为恼火,我没好气地说:“我朝他们射了一箭。
"I dismissed myself," I said. I remember how I promised Prim that I really would try to win and I feel like a ton of coal has dropped on me.
“我自己宣布结束。”我说。这时我想起了自己是怎样答应波丽姆我要努力赢得比赛,我感觉有一千的重担压在肩上。
"Nothing. Or I don't know. I walked out after that," I say.
“什么也没说,噢,我不知道,我径直走出了训练场。”我说。
"Well, that's that," says Haymitch. Then he butters a roll.
“哎,只能这样了。”黑密斯说道,在蛋卷上涂上黄油。
"Don't think so. Wouldn't make much sense. See, they'd have to reveal what happened in the Training Center for it to have any worthwhile effect on the population. People would need to know what you did. But they can't since it's secret, so it'd be a waste of effort," says Haymitch. "More likely they'll make your life hell in the arena."
“我认为不会,这没太大意义,那样的话,公众想知道你究竟做错了什么,他们就不得不把训练场的事曝光。但因为这是保密的,他们又不能让公众知道,所以他们不会那么做,那么做等于白费力气。”黑密斯说。“他们更有可能到竞技场里再刁难你。
"Well, they've already promised to do that to us anyway," says Peeta.
“哎,反正他们早晚会这么对我们的。”皮塔说。
I can feel the edges of my mouth tilting up. "Shocked. Terrified. Uh, ridiculous, some of them." An image pops into my mind. "One man tripped backward into a bowl of punch."
我觉得我的嘴角翘了起来,“震惊、害怕。唔,他们真是可笑。”当时的情形浮现在我眼前。“当时有一个人向后撞到在击打木球上。
"What about my family?" I say. "Will they punish them?"
“我的家人呢?”我说,“他们会惩罚我家人吗?
Haymitch guffaws and we all start laughing except Effie, although even she is suppressing a smile. "Well, it serves them right. It's their job to pay attention to you. And just because you come from District Twelve is no excuse to ignore you." Then her eyes dart around as if she's said something totally outrageous. "I'm sorry, but that's what I think," she says to no one in particular.
黑密斯听到后狂笑起来,我们大家也都跟着笑了起来,只有艾菲忍着没笑出来,她说:“嗯,他们活该。他们的工作就是观看你的技能展示,你从十二区来也不能成为他们对你不加理睬的理由。”然后她快速扫视了一下四周,好像她说了什么狂放不羁的话。“我很遗憾,可我就是这么想的。”她好像在自言自语。
"Very true," says Haymitch. And I realize the impossible has happened. They have actually cheered me up. Haymitch picks up a pork chop with his fingers, which makes Effie frown, and dunks it in his wine. He rips off a hunk of meat and starts to chuckle. "What were their faces like?"
“没错。”黑密斯说。我没想到他们会这么说,这使我恢复了点信心。黑密斯用手拿起一块猪肉,浸在红酒里,艾菲看到后峨眉微皱。黑密斯又撕开一大块肉,突然咯咯地笑起来。“当时他们什么表情?
"Scores only matter if they're very good, no one pays much attention to the bad or mediocre ones. For all they know, you could be hiding your talents to get a low score on purpose. People use that strategy," said Portia.
“只有高分才会引人注目,低分或者中等分数也没人会注意。因为他们清楚,也许选手留着一手,故意得低分。这种策略也有人用过。”波西娅说。
"I'll get a very bad score," I say.
“我的成绩一定很低了。”我说。
"I hope that's how people interpret the four I'll probably get," says Peeta. "If that. Really, is anything less impressive than watching a person pick up a heavy ball and throw it a couple of yards. One almost landed on my foot."
“我可能只得四分,希望大家也能这么想我就好了。”皮塔说,“我只是提起重球,扔出几码远,要是有人比我还糟,那他就是垫底的了。
After dinner, we go to the sitting room to watch the scores announced on television. First they show a photo of the tribute, then flash their score below it. The Career Tributes naturally get in the eight-to-ten range. Most of the other players average a five. Surprisingly, little Rue comes up with a seven. I don't know what she showed the judges, but she's so tiny it must have been impressive.
晚饭后,我们到会客室观看测试结果。电视上显出现“贡品”的照片,下方亮出他们的成绩。职业选手自然得到八分到十分的高分,其他多数选手得到五分,很奇怪,小露露得了七分。我不知道她在大赛组织者面前展示了什么技巧,但她小小的个头,肯定表现不俗。
I grin at him and realize that I'm starving. I cut off a piece of pork, dunk it in mashed potatoes, and start eating. It's okay. My family is safe. And if they are safe, no real harm has been done.
我冲他笑笑,突然感觉到饿了。我切下一块猪肉,把它埋在土豆泥里,大嚼起来。真是太好吃了。我的家人安全了,只要他们没事,就没什么大事。
"There must be a mistake. How… how could that happen?" I ask Haymitch.
“肯定弄错了。这…这怎么可能?”我问黑密斯。
Effie Trinket lets out a squeal, and everybody is slapping me on the back and cheering and congratulating me. But it doesn't seem real.
艾菲特琳奇尖叫起来,大家都拍着我的后背为我祝贺、加油。可这一切不像是真的。
Eleven!
十一分!
District 12 comes up last, as usual. Peeta pulls an eight so at least a couple of the Gamemakers must have been watching him. I dig my fingernails into my palms as my face comes up, expecting the worst. Then they're flashing the number eleven on the screen.
十二区选手的成绩像往常一样,最后出来。皮塔得了八分,当时肯定有人观看他的展示。我的脸在电视上出现时,我的手指甲使劲抠着手心,觉得成绩一定是最差的。接着屏幕上亮出了十一分。
"Katniss, the girl who was on fire," says Cinna and gives me a hug. "Oh, wait until you see your interview dress."
“凯特尼斯,燃烧的女孩。”西纳说道,然后拥抱了我一下。“噢,等着瞧吧,你采访时还有漂亮的服装呢。
"Guess they liked your temper," he says. "They've got a show to put on. They need some players with some heat."
“也许他们喜欢你的倔脾气。”他说,“他们还要进行表演,他们需要能激起观众热情的选手。
"Of a sort," he says mischievously.
“嗯,有一点吧。”他逗着我说。
Peeta and I congratulate each other, another awkward moment. We've both done well, but what does that mean for the other? I escape to my room as quickly as possible and burrow down under the covers. The stress of the day, particularly the crying, has worn me out. I drift off, reprieved, relieved, and with the number eleven still flashing behind my eyelids.
皮塔和我相互祝贺,这又是一个无比尴尬的时刻。我们俩都表现不错,可这对另一个人意味着什么?我尽可能早的溜回了自己房间,把头蒙在被单下面。这一天所遭受的压力,特别是哭泣,已使我精疲力竭。我闯过了一关,得到了暂时的解脱,十一这个数字仍在我的眼前闪现。
"More flames?" I ask.
“有更多火焰吗?”我问。
At dawn, I lie in bed for a while, watching the sun come up on a beautiful morning. It's Sunday. A day off at home. I wonder if Gale is in the woods yet. Usually we devote all of Sunday to stocking up for the week. Rising early, hunting and gathering, then trading at the Hob. I think of Gale without me. Both of us can hunt alone, but we're better as a pair. Particularly if we're trying for bigger game. But also in the littler things, having a partner lightened the load, could even make the arduous task of filling my family's table enjoyable.
清晨,我躺在床上,看着太阳在这个美丽的早晨慢慢升起。今天是星期天。在家是休息日。我纳闷盖尔这会儿是不是已经到了林子里。通常整个星期天我们都会为下一星期打食。一大早起床,捕猎、摘野菜野果,然后到市场去交换。我想象着我不在时盖尔一个人怎么捕猎。其实我们两个人都能单独捕猎,只不过一起干更好些,特别是捕捉大个头的猎物时。可就算捕捉小猎物,有人帮着扛那些沉甸甸的东西也挺好,这样的话,给家人四处谋食这样的苦差事也就成了轻松快乐的事。
I had been struggling along on my own for about six months when I first ran into Gale in the woods. It was a Sunday in October, the air cool and pungent with dying things. I'd spent the morning competing with the squirrels for nuts and the slightly warmer afternoon wading in shallow ponds harvesting katniss. The only meat I'd shot was a squirrel that had practically run over my toes in its quest for acorns, but the animals would still be afoot when the snow buried my other food sources. Having strayed farther afield than usual, I was hurrying back home, lugging my burlap sacks, when I came across a dead rabbit. It was hanging by its neck in a thin wire a foot above my head. About fifteen yards away was another. I recognized the twitch-up snares because my father had used them. When the prey is caught, it's yanked into the air out of the reach of other hungry animals. I'd been trying to use snares all summer with no success, so I couldn't help dropping my sacks to examine this one. My fingers were just on the wire above one of the rabbits when a voice rang out. "That's dangerous."
我第一次遇见盖尔是我在林中独自打猎的六个月之后,那时我为了找吃的可费了不少力气。那是十月的一个星期天,天气凉爽,空气中飘着一股烂树叶的味道。整整一个上午,我都忙着和松鼠争夺坚果,下午趁着有点暖意,我下到浅泥塘里挖“凯特尼斯”。我打到的唯一的肉食就是一只从我脚上跑过、想找坚果吃的松鼠。不管怎么说,我先不能捕捉猎物,因为大雪会把我其他食物埋住,而动物总还要四处活动的。那天我比平时走得稍远一点,因而回家的时候急匆匆的。我正拖着麻袋走,突然看到一只死兔子,那只兔子被一个细绳吊着,就在我头顶一英尺的地方。大约十五码外还吊着另一只。我认出来这是一种圈套,我爸爸曾用过这个。猎物被逮着以后,就被吊在空中,以防别的饥饿动物来吃。我一个夏天都在试着摆弄这种圈套,却没有弄成。所以我禁不住把麻袋扔下,仔细琢磨起这东西。我的手刚要碰到兔子上方的细线时,有人喊起来:“危险!
"Katniss," I said louder. "And I wasn't stealing it. I just wanted to look at your snare. Mine never catch anything."
“凯特尼斯,”我稍大点声说,“我没偷,我只是想看看你的圈套。我弄的圈套啥也抓不到。
"Katniss," I said, barely audible.
“凯特尼斯”我说,声音小得几乎听不见。
I jumped back several feet as Gale materialized from behind a tree. He must have been watching me the whole time. He was only fourteen, but he cleared six feet and was as good as an adult to me. I'd seen him around the Seam and at school. And one other time. He'd lost his father in the same blast that killed mine. In January, I'd stood by while he received his medal of valor in the Justice Building, another oldest child with no father. I remembered his two little brothers clutching his mother, a woman whose swollen belly announced she was just days away from giving birth.
我一惊之下,向后退了好几步,这时盖尔从树后头钻了出来。他肯定一直在盯着我。他只有十四岁,可足有六英尺高,在我看来就是个大人。我曾在“夹缝地带”和学校里见过他。让爸爸丧命的那次矿井爆炸同样也夺去了他爸爸的性命。一月份,他去领英勇奖章的时候,我就站在他身边,又是一个失去爸爸的长子。我记得他的两个弟弟搂着他妈妈,他妈妈当时腆着大肚子,眼瞅着就要生了。
"What's your name?" he said, coming over and disengaging the rabbit from the snare. He had another three hanging from his belt.
“你叫什么?”他说着,把兔子从绳套上取下来,他的腰上还别着另外三个。
"Well, Catnip, stealing's punishable by death, or hadn't you heard?" he said.
“嗯,薄荷猫,偷东西可是要判死刑的呦,你没听说过?”他说。
"I shot it." I pulled my bow off my shoulder. I was still using the small version my father had made me, but I'd been practicing with the full-size one when I could. I was hoping that by spring I might be able to bring down some bigger game.
“我打的。”我把弓从肩头取下来。我现在仍用这爸爸给我做得小弓,可只要有机会,我就学着用大弓。我想着到春天就能打些大点的猎物。
He scowled at me, not convinced. "So where'd you get the squirrel?"
他瞪着我,并不相信。“那,你的松鼠从哪弄的?
Gale's eyes fastened on the bow. "Can I see that?"
盖尔目不转睛地看着我的弓。“我能看看吗?
That was the first time I ever saw him smile. It transformed him from someone menacing to someone you wished you knew. But it took several months before I returned that smile.
那时我第一次看见他笑,他一下子从一个险恶的家伙变成一个让人想与之结识的人。我对他报以同样的微笑可是几个月之后的事了。
I handed it over. "Just remember, stealing's punishable by death."
我把弓递给他,“记住,偷东西是要判死刑的!
We talked hunting then. I told him I might be able to get him a bow if he had something to trade. Not food. I wanted knowledge. I wanted to set my own snares that caught a belt of fat rabbits in one day. He agreed something might be worked out. As the seasons went by, we grudgingly began to share our knowledge, our weapons, our secret places that were thick with wild plums or turkeys. He taught me snares and fishing. I showed him what plants to eat and eventually gave him one of our precious bows. And then one day, without either of us saying it, we became a team. Dividing the work and the spoils. Making sure that both our families had food.
我们聊起了打猎的事,我说如果他愿意跟我交换,我也可以给他弄把弓;不是拿吃的交换,而是拿他的知识换。我想自己设套,好有一天也能逮到挂满一腰带的兔子,他也答应了。时间一点点流逝,我们渐渐把自己知道的都告诉对方,在哪可以找到好多李子,哪里火鸡经常出没,我们还共用手里的家伙。他教会我下套和捕鱼。我告诉他哪些植物能吃,最后给了他一把我视若珍宝的弓。终于有一天,不言而喻,我们成了好伙伴。有难同当,有福同享,让两家的饭桌上都有饭吃。
Gale gave me a sense of security I'd lacked since my father's death. His companionship replaced the long solitary hours in the woods. I became a much better hunter when I didn't have to look over my shoulder constantly, when someone was watching my back. But he turned into so much more than a hunting partner. He became my confidant, someone with whom I could share thoughts I could never voice inside the fence. In exchange, he trusted me with his. Being out in the woods with Gale… sometimes I was actually happy.
盖尔让我有种安全感,这是自爸爸去世后就不再有的。他和我做伴,我一个人在林中漫长而孤寂的日子也就到了头。我不用再担心背后有人在盯着我,打起猎来也顺手多了。他还不仅仅是打猎的伴儿,也是我的知心朋友,在十二区不敢说的事,我都会对他一吐为快;他对我也报以同样的信任。在林子里,和盖尔一起,我时时觉得很快乐。
I call him my friend, but in the last year it's seemed too casual a word for what Gale is to me. A pang of longing shoots through my chest. If only he was with me now!
我称他为朋友,可从去年起,这个词好像已经不足以道出盖尔在我心中的位置。我的心一阵刺痛。他现在要是和我在一起该多好啊!
But, of course, I don't want that. I don't want him in the arena where he'd be dead in a few days. I just… I just miss him. And I hate being so alone. Does he miss me? He must.
当然,我并不是希望他在竞技场,在那,他撑不了几天就会死去。我只是…只是,想念他。我讨厌孤独一人。他也想我吗?肯定想。
I think of the eleven flashing under my name last night. I know exactly what he'd say to me. "Well, there's some room for improvement there." And then he'd give me a smile and I'd return it without hesitating now.
昨晚在我名字下方出现的十一的数字仍在我脑子里盘桓,我完全能够想象出盖尔会怎么说,“嗯,肯定还有待提高。”接着他对我微微一笑,我也会毫不犹豫地、开心地笑起来。
I can't help comparing what I have with Gale to what I'm pretending to have with Peeta. How I never question Gale's motives while I do nothing but doubt the latter's. It's not a fair comparison really. Gale and I were thrown together by a mutual need to survive. Peeta and I know the other's survival means our own death. How do you sidestep that?
我禁不住对我和盖尔之间真挚的友谊和我与皮塔之间假装的友善进行比较。我从未怀疑过盖尔的动机,而对皮塔却不得不心存疑虑。当然,这种比较并不完全公平,因为盖尔和我从未被抛到一需要彼此竞争才能生存的环境中,皮塔和我都很清楚对方的生存就意味自己的死亡。这个问题又怎能回避呢?
Effie's knocking at the door, reminding me there's another "big, big, big day!" ahead. Tomorrow night will be our televised interviews. I guess the whole team will have their hands full readying us for that.
艾菲在敲门,提醒我今天又是一个“非常、非常重要的日子!”。明晚要对我们进行电视采访。我猜想整个团队都会为我们忙得四脚朝天的。
I get up and take a quick shower, being a bit more careful about the buttons I hit, and head down to the dining room. Peeta, Effie, and Haymitch are huddled around the table talking in hushed voices. That seems odd, but hunger wins out over curiosity and I load up my plate with breakfast before I join them.
我从床上爬起来,快速冲了个澡,这回按下按钮时很小心。然后朝餐厅走去。皮塔、艾菲和黑密斯围成一堆在小声地说着什么。真奇怪。可还是饥饿占了上风,我先没理他们,在盘子里盛满食物。
The stew's made with tender chunks of lamb and dried plums today. Perfect on the bed of wild rice. I've shoveled about halfway through the mound when I realize no one's talking. I take a big gulp of orange juice and wipe my mouth. "So, what's going on? You're coaching us on interviews today, right?"
炖菜是用大块嫩羊肉和李子干儿做得,浇在野生大米烧的大米饭上。我吃了一半的时候突然意识到没人说话了。我喝了一大口橘汁,擦了擦嘴,说:“那么,怎么样?今天您要训练我们怎样接受采访,对吗?
"That's right," says Haymitch.
“是的。”黑密斯说,
"You don't have to wait until I'm done. I can listen and eat at the same time," I say.
“不用等我吃完,我可以边吃边听。”我说。
"What's that?" I ask. I'm not sure what our current approach is. Trying to appear mediocre in front of the other tributes is the last bit of strategy I remember.
“什么变化?”我问,我也不知道我们目前的训练方法是什么。在另一个选手面前不显山露水是我唯一记住的最重要的策略。
"Well, there's been a change of plans. About our current approach," says Haymitch.
“嗯,关于我们目前的训练方法,计划有点变化。”黑密斯说。
Haymitch shrugs. "Peeta has asked to be coached separately."
黑密斯耸耸肩,“皮塔要求和你分开训练。